jetta

Sitting here this morning on your livingroom couch
reveling in my abandondment and all its twisted glory. This heavy wanting; to do nothing more than
slip into bed and feel you wanting me.
This wanting, I'll dismiss to execute the depth of this sorrow...locked away within me.

Coincidentally, the times in my life I often feel
excruciatingly alone- are the times when I indulge in the mind numbing, soul smashing manorisms of
having a lover that feels like home...
Pulling out the microscope I begin to disect and
mutilate myself to the core..and at your discretion
new self esteam is born.

Now their is a conflict within me stiring to a
battle, I think again that my heart will lose...
Shaken by lonely bones that eminate a disturbing rattle....
xoxo........................j-