I feel like an uber update!!!
Today I have been mostly trying to tidy up my room....
It's funny how you never get attatched to student homes, this place will never be 'home'. Although, since I left home, my brother has completely changed my bedroom and now there doesn't feel like home either. Bit lost at the moment!
I really want to do something with my life, it feels at the moment like I'm just sitting around waiting for things to come to me. Hell it's always worked before, but why does it feel so pointless now?
I don't have any money, not a penny, it's really shit, I don't get paid enough from work to live on, which is a complete joke really considering that until recently I've been living really comfortably on it. I want to go see my friends, but they're all staying at uni for easter, and it sucks. I could drive there, but petrol costs money, money I don't have!
I really, really want to submit another set, but it seems nobody has anytime to help me. My boyfriend brought his proper camera round, but has been at college for the last 2 weeks doing work, and I've been weather watching. Obviously everyone else is busy doing their stuff aswell, and my motivations dropping, I've got ill AGAIN, I'm never ill, and this is twice in a month. So I look and feel shit, I hate the way getting ill destroys all forms of motivation you have.
I want another tattoo aswell, I like the adrenaline rush it gives me.
Ooh, I've just seen a bumble bee, that's always a good sign, maybe summer is round the corner, and maybe it will all perk up, and I'm just being melodramatic?! Who knows? I miss ska and weed in the park. I miss good festival line ups!!! Summer used to be so much more fun when I was younger! Maybe I'll have a childish summer, just for the beans?
Today I have been mostly trying to tidy up my room....
It's funny how you never get attatched to student homes, this place will never be 'home'. Although, since I left home, my brother has completely changed my bedroom and now there doesn't feel like home either. Bit lost at the moment!
I really want to do something with my life, it feels at the moment like I'm just sitting around waiting for things to come to me. Hell it's always worked before, but why does it feel so pointless now?
I don't have any money, not a penny, it's really shit, I don't get paid enough from work to live on, which is a complete joke really considering that until recently I've been living really comfortably on it. I want to go see my friends, but they're all staying at uni for easter, and it sucks. I could drive there, but petrol costs money, money I don't have!
I really, really want to submit another set, but it seems nobody has anytime to help me. My boyfriend brought his proper camera round, but has been at college for the last 2 weeks doing work, and I've been weather watching. Obviously everyone else is busy doing their stuff aswell, and my motivations dropping, I've got ill AGAIN, I'm never ill, and this is twice in a month. So I look and feel shit, I hate the way getting ill destroys all forms of motivation you have.
I want another tattoo aswell, I like the adrenaline rush it gives me.
Ooh, I've just seen a bumble bee, that's always a good sign, maybe summer is round the corner, and maybe it will all perk up, and I'm just being melodramatic?! Who knows? I miss ska and weed in the park. I miss good festival line ups!!! Summer used to be so much more fun when I was younger! Maybe I'll have a childish summer, just for the beans?