Most of the time I try to keep my journal upbeat. Though I know I've had a handful of bitching or being down.
But some days, especially lately, it's as if some secret has gone around and friends are dropping like flies. And mentally I'm asking WTF Did I do?!?
I've always been someone that if I had a problem with a friend I would go straight to them. Whether I heard something or something that came down the grapevine. Whatever the case would be, I like to personally clarify shit because if it didn't come from their mouth who knows where the fuck it's coming from. Opinions and spiteful persons usually, in my past.
Had this conversation last week with a group of awesome people I befriended locally through Sam. Two friends. Best friends for years. One hears from whoever that Bestie said some,thing no where near her character but this friend doesn't go to the source, which is bestie.
My BFF Kathi and I always went face to face with shit we heard. Hell we'd run to each other with stuff people are trying to say who didn't know us and we'd laugh our asses off because we'd been like siamese twins for 9 years. Now I'm crying. I miss Kathi.
I hate making friends to tell you the truth. It's no easy task. And in the end .. who fucking knows where you'll end up. Friendships and relationships go hand in hand in bullshit factors.
But some days, especially lately, it's as if some secret has gone around and friends are dropping like flies. And mentally I'm asking WTF Did I do?!?
I've always been someone that if I had a problem with a friend I would go straight to them. Whether I heard something or something that came down the grapevine. Whatever the case would be, I like to personally clarify shit because if it didn't come from their mouth who knows where the fuck it's coming from. Opinions and spiteful persons usually, in my past.
Had this conversation last week with a group of awesome people I befriended locally through Sam. Two friends. Best friends for years. One hears from whoever that Bestie said some,thing no where near her character but this friend doesn't go to the source, which is bestie.
My BFF Kathi and I always went face to face with shit we heard. Hell we'd run to each other with stuff people are trying to say who didn't know us and we'd laugh our asses off because we'd been like siamese twins for 9 years. Now I'm crying. I miss Kathi.
I hate making friends to tell you the truth. It's no easy task. And in the end .. who fucking knows where you'll end up. Friendships and relationships go hand in hand in bullshit factors.
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nanette:
You do have a friend in NY... 
bonddude33:
You just have to stay strong. A real friend will stick with you through the tough times, no matter what others may say about you. This quote by Bob Marley basically sums up how friendship is with most people: "The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for."