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I've just finished eating. Well, a while ago. Ten minutes maybe? I'm very full. I made some delicious rice, stewed tomatoes, white bean, soy meat, herbs mixture. I put a little bit of cheese on top and it made it taste lovely. I'm so full right now though. I've eaten a lot today, I think. I ate that and I ate a veggie thing for lunch. No breakfast, though. When do I eat breakfast? Ha!

I hung out with Jay a few hours today. We took a bunch of pictures. That's useful. We're going to the beach on Friday, again. We're going to take some pictures there as well. And I'll turn in my Suicide Girls application by Saturday.

So far, I feel uncomfortable posing for him. I guess it will be hard once I get to the real deal. Well, for that I'm going to let Will photograph me, because I've always felt like myself and felt more comfortable with him. But, it worries me, because I do the things I've told him I would do for him. He doesn't do those things for me. I don't want to talk about it right now, though. But, eventually I would like to be photographed by a professional.

I mean, this will all be happening if I really do become a Suicide Girl.
But why not?
Tonight I feel really confident.

I guess it's because a lot of my pictures turned out well. I'm excited to be going to the beach on Friday. Each time, the pictures get better, and I honestly think I can do this.

I really should be doing my homework. I'm behind on some of my drawing stuff. I will do it, though. I'll get it done. I mean, I can do anything. At least that's what I feel like, because I already got a lot of work done on my room last night. That was very great for me.

Because...
I found old clothes of mine that used to be tight on me. They fit me pretty much perfectly now. I'm so proud of myself.



I'm in Love, and it drives me up the walls.