jessicadiana

What a lovely thursday morning. Let me brush up on some cathartic subjects to expel some hostility I've been holding on myself lately.

And forgive me, I've been drinking

I have an addiction. Not to alcohol, to drugs, or even to men, but to pride. That moment you made me leave and told me I was nothing to you, it made me attempt to kill...
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As of late, my plan of just visiting my friends and family in Illinois has turned into an extended stay. And by extended, I'm having my shit mailed back to me and I'm starting school in the fall! : ) Very happy right now, though not much has changed since the last time I left. My DUI shit is officially done and over with as...
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Consume. Restrict. Release.

These are three words that absorb all of my time. I am greedy. I indulge. I consume.

I consume, consume, and consume. Then I feel bad and I restrict and ultimately release.

This little situation can apply to every angle of my life, but I'm talking about a dirty little secret tonight. The night has passed on and I haven't even noticed......
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Consume. Restrict. Release.

These are three words that absorb all of my time. I am greedy. I indulge. I consume.

I consume, consume, and consume. Then I feel bad and I restrict and ultimately release.

This little situation can apply to every angle of my life, but I'm talking about a dirty little secret tonight. The night has passed on and I haven't even noticed......
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Why is it that Jessica + "boyfriend" never seem to mix? I have never been consistent with a man for more than a month before kicking him to the curb. The men have turned out to be cheapskates, bums, poorly mannered, or in this past douchebags case -- unmercifully stupid.

I won't elaborate, but this guy did not last more than 2 weeks. One night...
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Ive been sitting in this empty room virtually all day. No lights or TV on, no noise except the sounds of screaming toddlers on the other side of the closed door. It is 4:30PM and Ive only left the room twice: once to go out to the pool for 2 hours, and then once about twenty minutes ago to get a drink. Why am I...
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I'm drunk, therefore I'm going to post a list of people I'd fuck. Why? Because I can. Fuck you.
Hello red wine.

-Louis CK
-Ville Valo
-Kat Von D
-Sheamus+ Heath Slater. Only at one... fuck it. I'll take em both separately.
-Norman Reedus
-Michelle Rodriquez
-Robert Pattinson
-Probably Dane Cook
-Virtually every attractive WWE wrestler.. I know I mentioned above...but fuck you.

I was...
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Here's an idea, get yourself a pen pal and send each other cute stuff! My pal of choice is Megan. She sent me some delicious Koala Yummies. Do you remember those? I forgot the actual name of it, but they're little koala shaped cookies with yummy fillings! (Strawberry FTW.) So I'm making these and am sending them back to her. I'm also sending a batch...
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So I just got back from a 45 minute walk/jog. I feel great.
I'm supposed to feel great, right? Since the last time I've posted on this website, I've dropped 20 lbs, had given up smoking and drinking, and have secluded myself from all evil, unnatural things that are poisoning my body.

I mean I felt really great! Up until 3 days ago..

One morning...
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