jessewestend

It pains me that you can never understand
that which makes me who i am.

The fire burns ever higher,
blurring the lines between hate and desire.


JWE is completely, 100% single for the first time in... god knows how long. I am finally here. I feel like i just arrived in SF bc i have still been living on Central Standard Time trying to hold the past together with duct tape and empty words.

I have to get used to the fact that I'm actually here and that no one is waiting on my call. No one is going to txt me, no one cares who i have pictures of on myspace or any of that other other childish bullshit that you actually get really used to and sort of enjoy deep inside.

NO MORE DATING SGs by the way. NO Ex GFs and no SGs. Its my new rule. Oh and no poop sex,thats an old rule but one i'm still fond of. By the way, this doesn't mean I'm mad at anyone. I'm just through with distance. I need something local and normal and cute and real. It's time to grow up.

I'm going into the city in a bit, to get a second job... this time at Diesel. that should complete my metro sexuality.