jeseryn

I'm a little depressed. It's Christmas. I usually LOVE Christmas! Last year I had some medical issues so it was a scary Christmas but I promised myself this year would be better. I don't have a job. I'm basically alone. I can't buy nice things for the people I love. I'm not sure I can even keep the cable on for internet and holiday specials.

One of the worse things about all of this is I have no idea how to go about digging myself out of this hole. Noone will hire me. I don't even want to go on any more interviews. Positive thinking and Creative Visualization have not worked and I give up. I end up creatively visualizing myself dead in a snowbank somewhere because I get sidetracked with anxiety about how everything is just so piled up and about to implode.

I know I'm whining. I just need to vent a little. Feel free to ignore me and go about your merry way.

I just wish things were easier. And I hope you ALL are having a much easier time then me.

Watch this. It's so beautiful



Also the first time I heard him and fell in love



And this one for my friend Cliffie who lost his 10 year old daughter this week.