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MORE PICTURES ...... But First I need to go on a lil rant for a min or 2

I feel like i have been in a deep dark coma for some time now. I have felt uninspired by life. I have felt like i have fallen into a horriable nightmare that i cant blame anyone else for besides myself...... And the past few days i have slowly been feeling like i am emerging from this coma slowly wakeing up and feeling alive again. I realized its OK to laugh n smile again. I also suddenly feel inspired to pick up my camera again. I want to photograph the world again i dont want to leave the house without my camera. I dont know what woke me up or why i suddenly woke up but im not complaining. Maybe its cause i finally again have a roof over my head n keys to somewhere to call home even if its only tempory. Maybe its cause i havent been slaveing away in the slums of Strip clubs anymore. Maybe it is cause i am sober. Maybe it is casue I have been surrounding my self with good people who all have faith in me and inspire me. Maybe its cause i have lost a bit of weight n suddenly am not so self concious. Or Maybe im just finally learnig to accept my mistakes and try to change the things i have done wrong in the past. What ever it may be I am for once OK with everything. I may be broke n scrapeing by but i know this too shall pass.

The past 6 years i lived out here in California it was very rare that anyone ever came and visited me leaveing me to feel super lonely and home sick. I have only been back in california for 3 weeks and I have blessed with some of the most amazing visitors. !st week home my friends Gina and Joyce from NJ came to visit me and left me feeling so loved and apreciated. I cant wait for them to come back. Then my friend Janis calls me and tells me she booked a flight to come visit me for thanksgiving so im not alone. Then my friend Chris who randomly showed up and just knowing that he knew me when i started taking pictures of bands back at the Birch Hill in NJ when i was only 17 and still has faith in me at 27 means the world to me. Then there was another friend who i may say one night of driveing around and talking sort of made me wake up a little. After that drive i ran to my camera n fell inlove with photography again. All cause i promised a picture of something a cell phone couldnt capture the beauty of.

And with each of these people visiting and me driveing them around to see some of the most beautiful sights that LA has to offer as well as my recent drive across I-80, I realized why do i not have my camera in my hand more often. why am i letting these moments fly by without freezing time for future visual memories. I dont understand why more people dont just get in their cars n take a senic drive every once in a while. Ever since i turned 17 and got my liscense all i have ever done for joy in life is go on adventures with my camera. It was what helped me keep my sanity. And somewhere within the past year or 2 i lost that and slipped into that hellish coma i am slowly pulling myself out of. FUCK NATIONAL STAY AT HOME WEEK. I say it should be national get in your car n go for a drive week or what about national go for a hike week or even national go for a bike ride week. WAKE UP smell the flowers trust me they smell amazing if you drive down Sunset Blvd towards PCH at night thru beverly hills all the way to the ocean.

Yesterday i drove up PCH to some beach i think its called Leo Cabrillo beach with my camera with an image in my mind. even tho the waves from the ocean ate my image litterly by sweeping everything away that i set up. I still discovered Starfish and an octipuss hideing between the rocks in little pools that the waves had helped create.

You may wonder what do i do with my days now? in the early morning as the sun is comming up i drive around with my camera and go on lil photo missions to keep my sanity, and then by day i either work as an assistant photographer to a friend of mine or i sit in my hallway looking for work online. (yes the hallway i payed my neighbors $10 for their password to the wireless and i ony get their signal in my hallway) And then when the sun begins to set i grab my camera and go out and drive and take more pictures. Im pretty content with my life right now. Some days i wish i had someone to share these adventures with. Someone who also maybe has a creative outlook on life but i cant ask for the world. I would love to do more traveling in the near future but i basically drained myself dry considering i did drive across the country 3 times this summer and gas isnt cheap. but maybe when i get my funds back up i can complete the last 10 states of the USA maybe even before i turn 30. And after i complete that i can begin to travel Europe and other countrys.

On other news MY BIRTHDAY is comming up i will be 27 on OCTOBER 22nd im excited. I am hopeing 27 will be a good year for me.
And i realized that i have some of the worlds most amazing people by my side who will always be there for me and I can truely call FRIENDS.

NOW SOME MORE PICTURES


My new hair cut which i have been loveing


heres a pic from before i cut my hair to give u an idea of how much went bye bye. this pic was from the night my friends gina and joyce too me to Villalounge talk about not my scene but alot of fun

Before my drive across I-80 i had never seen a stripped cow before have u?

this was taken on rt 66 HERE WHAT IS there was nothing there

this pic says it all

And i finally got to spray paint a car at the cadilac rance in amerillo texas with out getting chased by cows n bulls as the sun was comming up



heres some pictures of me and my random road trip buddies this summer
me and my ex room mate Chris i get bored easily in the passenger seat n i think i ate a dozen pen caps tryin not to chain smoke drivein rt 66

me and hello kitty n my silly flower drivein I-80 yes i know takin pics n drivein is not safe
me hello kitty n ice bat leavein nj on i-80

and my best friend in the whole world my trusty lil matrix look she still had hub caps


I recently found some pictures burried in my computer of some conventions from over the summer too
me and SG Calamity at hell city

bob n gunner and some ladies taken in long beach



Hector Fong AKA Fine Line Fong From rock of ages Tattooing a cupcake on my leg in long beach



Paul Acker tattooing my other leg in long beach on the queen mary

me and barb from deepsix

some awsome cars from the car show at the queen mary ink and iron fest


This is beyond gross but had to share this billboard i saw on I-40 in arizona
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this summer it was so hot in NJ me and my friend shannon bought a slip and slide just to cool off

can i tell u how much fun this girl is and yes that is her tattooed on my leg

halloween is comming up too what should i be?????
Queen of hearts

Sexy slutty nurse

prisioner

ref

NUN

or should i go shoppin 4 something new????
well anyway i am off to start my day and find more work then to wander the world
much love