I have been unemployeed since May. Not easy -look into unemployment compensation asap.And just consider if going home wouldn't be a good idea for a spell. But do get help. The mind is like the devil sometimes, when it is in a negative state it will spin everything to seem hopeless. In order to see the truth in your life, the mind has to be silenced a bit, so that negative can be chased away in kicked in the arse!!! That's when the truth can start to seep back in as opposed to the illusion. Things suck for alot of people right now-that's the truth, most of us have gone through worse, and tomorrow will be bright and sunny....I say that because i've been low enough that not waking up seemed like a perfect option, but I am damn sure glad my faith and desire for happiness and my ego saying fuck that I'm not a victim and life owes me more than this all got me through back then. What's going on now is nothing but an irratating vacation where my funds are low and I'm bored as hell! C'est la vie...and so I say the same to you, but you will need to talk to others who understand and can guide you properly, you may need to look at herbal options to help calm your nerves and well being. Lavender candles and satchels and essential oils. St johns Wort...wearing bright colors and keeping your space with bright colors. Get outside and take in the fresh air, because curled up in bed in fetal....not going to solve anything......mostly, talk. You have to want to get through this.
Your in my prayer and thoughts.....
Your in my prayer and thoughts.....
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