jericho

I have been unemployeed since May. Not easy -look into unemployment compensation asap.And just consider if going home wouldn't be a good idea for a spell. But do get help. The mind is like the devil sometimes, when it is in a negative state it will spin everything to seem hopeless. In order to see the truth in your life, the mind has to be silenced a bit, so that negative can be chased away in kicked in the arse!!! That's when the truth can start to seep back in as opposed to the illusion. Things suck for alot of people right now-that's the truth, most of us have gone through worse, and tomorrow will be bright and sunny....I say that because i've been low enough that not waking up seemed like a perfect option, but I am damn sure glad my faith and desire for happiness and my ego saying fuck that I'm not a victim and life owes me more than this all got me through back then. What's going on now is nothing but an irratating vacation where my funds are low and I'm bored as hell! C'est la vie...and so I say the same to you, but you will need to talk to others who understand and can guide you properly, you may need to look at herbal options to help calm your nerves and well being. Lavender candles and satchels and essential oils. St johns Wort...wearing bright colors and keeping your space with bright colors. Get outside and take in the fresh air, because curled up in bed in fetal....not going to solve anything......mostly, talk. You have to want to get through this.
Your in my prayer and thoughts.....

Are you working out, or do you do meditation or Yoga or things of the sort? sOME PEOPLE need TO PHYSICALLY assert themselves in order to gain clarity and balance and deal with the daily stresses of life. I am one that has to have the meditative and stretching, does my body good and is wonders for my mind-Note to myelf!!!
Also make sure that there isn't something physical going on with you. Here is a true story and this is why I say this: this is almost two years ago that it began:
Roomate was dating cute medical guy
I got sinus infection
he gave me antibiotics so I wouldn't have to waste time w/doctor
I got yeast infection from them
I thought yeast infection was gone
started seeing a boy
had sex a few times
several months later tried to figure out why always exhausted
several months of trying to concentrate on work
several months of feeling incapable of accomplishing anything
Mini breakdown at work a week after I fought like hell not to pass out in a business meeting
Went straight to therapist
sent me straight to doctor to rule out physical affects on my emotional well being
Kidney infection for 6months-that's what I had
Back to therapist who then decided I did not need to see her but had to set boundaries in my life and start putting myself first.

if your therapist didn't suggest it, get a full check up and rule out the physical. Plus you'll breathe alittle easier.

We all go through stuff, it's the process of life as long as we can sit back and understand the why's. I send you kisses casue I know life is sucking right now.

Thank you for your comments about my set hun!!!!

mhm! it was! hope yours was good as well.

Well I can assure you, spending all that cash was not a wise thing to do.. but I definately needed new clothing for work! My wardrobe was really beginning to suck!
Nothing too exciting here.. my sister is visiting from my hometown, and thats about it.. we're super different from eachother! haha

Where have been being you?

MISS YOU!!!!!!!!

LOVE U!