jeribelle

Ugh, it's been too long!

I have just emerged from the depths of my own brain, soaked in brain goo and ready to lick myself clean.

Mmmm. Brains.

Thank ya'll for the birthday wishes

I want to start playing music again yesterday, damnit!

My last band broke up. Nothing major, just changed our minds about being in a band together cause it wasn't working musically....
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There was this article in the Milwaukee Journal Sentinel today that kind of confused me and pissed me off and made me happy all at the same time.

http://www.jsonline.com/lifestyle/people/aug05/347401.asp

I don't get why this woman was in a hospital bed for 20 years and not moved around. Why is she even IN a nursing home? And how many other cases like this go on without...
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So my band broke up. I freaked the fuck out. Now I'm back to normal. Yippee.

I hate Xanax. It is TERRIBLE. I told my doc to never prescribe it to me again. I hate the stupid shit I do, say and forget when I'm on that shit. I don't think I have any left, and I'm glad.

I feel like I want to SCREAM! It's always something...

I keep having dentist/teeth dreams. Dream #1 was a dentist redid my teeth and made them really huge and long. Dream #2 was a dentist put this plastic thing over my teeth because they were really tiny and gaps everywhere, and the thing was really chewy and uncomfortable so I tore it off and decided...
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My band has shows coming up!!! We're playing pretty much every week in August! I would LOVE for ya'll to show up. If you do though, come say hi!!!! I don't bite.

Aug 2 2005 10:00P
The Corral Room Madison, WI
Aug 11 2005 10:00P
the corral room madison, WI
Aug 18 2005 9:00P
The Annex madison, WI
Aug 26 2005 8:00P
nate's back to...
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My band (Hello, Trauma) recorded two songs today. It took from 4:30 until 12:50 or so. I'm so damn exhausted. But thank fucking goodness for coffee. Hot Damn. And thank goodness for Mikelanne making everyone a delicious mexican dinner!

I need a fucking vacation!

Having a cold sucks.
Televised poker sucks.


I need to keep napping

Sometimes, it seems like I mentally hurt myself. I wonder if I do it on purpose, just to feel something.

Cuntspray.

I am a fucking crazy little thing.

So...I felt a whole lot worse for 2 days

And now I feel a whole lot better

"See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me.
Soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two are just ahead of me."

So I'm in this really bizarre place in my mental universe.

I am currently engaging in Equestrian Therapy, which is therapy where you care for and engage with horses. There's also cats and dogs and baby kittens. The farm is huge, with a nature path and everything.

Today, I put my head on a horses stomach and listened to her breathe. It was wonderful for...
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I keep picking at the gaping wound in the back of my mouth. The gauze they put in there to stop the pain keeps falling out and so the first time I pulled it out. This time, I pushed it back in with tweezers, but now I can't see it and so I put the tweezers in the hole to try to make sure it...
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Today was obnoxious.

I ran out of pain meds and had to call in a refill. Luckily, I got them.

Then this extremely foul taste/stench started wafting from my wounds. It tastes and smells like poop, and nothing really allieviates it. Salt water and listerine sort of help.

So I probably have Dry sockets or whatnot. whoo hoo.

Last night I woke up twice with...
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