I've not been feeling the greatest lately, and I'm still not. So that's why the following will be lacking:
I'm looking for purpose... in someone or something. Oh, well
I'm looking for purpose... in someone or something. Oh, well
I'm blowing off Friday school stuff to make an appearance back in the home town.
I'm going to be drunk for the next three days.
Yeah for Arnold! I always liked him. The first movie I ever saw of his was Running Man I've liked every movie he did after that - except Red Heat. My fav movie is probably Conan: The Barbarian or Kindergarten...
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I'm going to be drunk for the next three days.
Yeah for Arnold! I always liked him. The first movie I ever saw of his was Running Man I've liked every movie he did after that - except Red Heat. My fav movie is probably Conan: The Barbarian or Kindergarten...
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monet:
I want to see Kill Bill too! Ha!
Have fun at home, but be safe please!
Have fun at home, but be safe please!
It's been a couple of days...
I've been busy.
You ever hear that bs: that we create the situation that we are in.
I don't deny that we are responsible for every situation we inherit, yet the idea that someone actually sits down and makes things miserable for themselves is hard for me to believe. You know what I think it is:
People get too...
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I've been busy.
You ever hear that bs: that we create the situation that we are in.
I don't deny that we are responsible for every situation we inherit, yet the idea that someone actually sits down and makes things miserable for themselves is hard for me to believe. You know what I think it is:
People get too...
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ryan:
your profile pic is kinda scarry...two beedy red eyes glaring at me...all the time...
instead of bitching about the situation, people could also examine it and what they want and make changes to accomodate happy...
that's why i'm moving...
i'm unhappy here, have been for years...makes me crazy...
got an opportunity to go-i go... no more chances not taken...
instead of bitching about the situation, people could also examine it and what they want and make changes to accomodate happy...
that's why i'm moving...
i'm unhappy here, have been for years...makes me crazy...
got an opportunity to go-i go... no more chances not taken...
ryan:
ha ha! if i liked scotch!! i'll drink beer tho...things are looking up yet again....everything problematic was just a small snag. i can't wait to get home...
I supposed to go back to the old stompin' grounds for a spell this weekend... but it looks like it fell through. My parents just moved this tuesday and they say they're not situated enough to have me home stumbling around the house all drunk and such. I'm disappointed, yet it's proabably for the best. I think I'm going to head back next weekend. That...
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ryan:
wow....i wouldn't want to go to the old stomping grounds...i'm getting away finally...but maybe home isn't so bad fot you...hmmm.. at least you will have a homie to kick it with...
monet:
I'm confused, where are you going? Or are you going anywhere? Are you moving?
I was stressing myself out over an exam I thought I had this morning... turns out it's not till friday. I spent the last 10 hours reading non-stop and now my eyes will hardly focus. I still have a different exam... but it's more slacker friendly. That's not true. The truth is that I think I might be trying to do too much again... I...
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ryan:
i always stress about exams.. because if i don't get my 4.0 i get mad...perfectionism compulsions are tough...i like your words.. someday somebody will write about me like that...yhea someday, yhea right-not in the stars for me... ahhhh...suck.
I saw a semi-funny thing today while on campus. There is a student group protesting Tyson's labor practices - Tyson: processes and distributes poultry in both residential and commercial markets. Anyways, on campus you are allowed to write in chalk and express your views all over campus. In most cases, it's some slogan, and this student group did do some of that. However, then they...
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jonnyjester:
Thanks dude........ i needed that.
ryan:
new tattoo is my heart with a dagger stabbed thru it...a little icky..yes...but it's me. and i like it. panic attacks...me thinking bad thoughts, my breathing becoming erratic, sweatty, dizzy, constricted chest...not fun times for me...trying to get better tho.. yes moving is the best thing in the world for me!
Tons of work.
I've been working on stuff since 2pm, it was about 10pm when I stopped... 8 hours and I'm not done yet.
To be honest, it's a little bit overwhelming, but I cannot make myself feel bad about it. I'm confident - barring some catastrophe - that I'll catch up.
As I go around the site, I see the previous sentiment to be...
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I've been working on stuff since 2pm, it was about 10pm when I stopped... 8 hours and I'm not done yet.
To be honest, it's a little bit overwhelming, but I cannot make myself feel bad about it. I'm confident - barring some catastrophe - that I'll catch up.
As I go around the site, I see the previous sentiment to be...
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ryan:
i love reading your journal...i do agree that all our experiences make us who we are...and to have any of those various constructs changed or deleted somehow would only make us into someone we didn't know...we wouldn't be who we are as we know ourselves. it really is just a shame that we must endure adverse experiences...humans by nature are lazy; it simply uses more energy to preservere and deal than to avoid.. but i am also very much a behaviorist and do think that reinforcement of any kind will increase the likelyhood that a behavior will reoccur...ahhh my rambling..my little poem was more about me really wanting just to feel and taste lips on mine but feeling too insecure to do anything about it...i miss stuff about boys sometimes..but know i'm better off getting my life to where i want it before i can even consider taking that extremely risky blind jump...
jonnyjester:
Yeah dude how does one over come that. that fear of being alone and pushing people away?...... i wish i knew so i wouldn't keep pushing her from me.... but i dont know how... and i know im doing it.... but i haven't been able to find a way to stop it........
My drinking top ten list:
1. Crown on the rocks
2. Crown n' cola
3. Royal cherry
4. Blatz
5. PBR
6. Surfer on acid
7. E&J Brandy n' anything
8. Jim Beam n' anything
9. Miller High Life
10. Pussy (oops, that's on my favorite things to eat top ten list).
It is called coping: what we do in order to go on with...
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1. Crown on the rocks
2. Crown n' cola
3. Royal cherry
4. Blatz
5. PBR
6. Surfer on acid
7. E&J Brandy n' anything
8. Jim Beam n' anything
9. Miller High Life
10. Pussy (oops, that's on my favorite things to eat top ten list).
It is called coping: what we do in order to go on with...
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monet:
Thank you for the compliment by the way!!!! You're a sweetheart!
stacie:
skipped out on the job.. completely skipped.
...and then he told me he loved me;
I said that I was not his son.
...and then he told me he saved me;
I said that I was not his son.
...and then he told me he was of the father;
I said that I was not their son.
...and then he stood there - in darkness - crying;
I told him I loved...
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I said that I was not his son.
...and then he told me he saved me;
I said that I was not his son.
...and then he told me he was of the father;
I said that I was not their son.
...and then he stood there - in darkness - crying;
I told him I loved...
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I slacked over the weekend in the homework department. I'm cool now. However, my eyes hurt from reading so much. I'm not complaining... I love my work. Just a word to the wise, " You pay for being lazy in one way or the other."
Oh, and if you come here go here: Monetand give the girl some props for acension into the ranks...
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Oh, and if you come here go here: Monetand give the girl some props for acension into the ranks...
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AIM: monetsuicide
I hope things get better sweetie!