... i'm not falling into mind games. i'm just not doing well all on my own. i feel alone. incredibly fucking alone. supposedly i'm not alone anymore, ya know.. the whole boyfriend in arizona thing.. but i dunno.. it doesn't make me feel less alone. i'm not feelin fuckin sorry for myself so don't think that. don't think i'm a stupid weak ass person who sits around feeling sorry for themselves. i try to feel better, i honeslty do. i do other stuff to try and get my mind off things, just doesn't seem to be workin. i dunno... don't you ever just feel so alone that you wanna die? i sure as fuck do. its happenin lots more lately. 
aj_paradiselost:
I don't understand why chicks as pretty as you Jenny Penny should feel that way. You are incredibly smart, and possess a smile that would make Lord Lucifer melt. Anyway beautiful I want to talk to you soon. I got your message but I was in the shower and I would NEVER dream of not returning your messages. I think you should write more when you are down. We all feel down, it is how we channel it that makes us masters of ourselves. I'm gonna crash now. Hugs and multiple kisses, in all the right places............I'm being wicked.....lol......bye beautiful princess.