Well I leave for London two weeks from today. Soooo weird. I'm not ready at all. Eleven books to read and I'm only about an eighth into the first one. (Although I did start with the thickest book so I could get it done with). The Satanic Verses.. which is a book I would've liked to read on my own anyways. Its decent so far, I'm just not in the habit of writing all over my books and marking important points so its takin me a while to get back into that.
I hate that my gf makes it hard for me to put my schoolwork above her, and I'm sorry but I have to. I have fuckin 11 books to read and yet she gets upset and grouchy if I don't come over for a night or if I only talk to her for like half an hour because honestly I need to buckle down and get reading. Sry.. just needed to vent that a little.
I died my hair two days ago.. and its getting longer now. Maybe I'll actually take a pic sometime and put it up so you can all see. I'm off to a wedding today with Crissy. It's her cousin's wedding. Her family knows but doesn't completely know about us. It makes me incredibly uncomfortable but if I tell her that or say anything about it she pretty much flips out on me. So I'll just go to the wedding reception with her, sit there and not really talk to anyone, act polite and try to not be too self conscious. Did this once last year, and it pissed me off then just about as much as its gonna piss me off today. She'll get upset about her family not talking to her and looking down on her when she's not even willing to talk to them about being a lesbian. I dunno.... just little things that I can't stand but she doesn't understand how it might make me uncomfortable. I'll deal. But it just sucks when I know that I really need to be reading and cleaning and getting ready for my trip.
I'll try not to complain so much next time.
later...
I hate that my gf makes it hard for me to put my schoolwork above her, and I'm sorry but I have to. I have fuckin 11 books to read and yet she gets upset and grouchy if I don't come over for a night or if I only talk to her for like half an hour because honestly I need to buckle down and get reading. Sry.. just needed to vent that a little.
I died my hair two days ago.. and its getting longer now. Maybe I'll actually take a pic sometime and put it up so you can all see. I'm off to a wedding today with Crissy. It's her cousin's wedding. Her family knows but doesn't completely know about us. It makes me incredibly uncomfortable but if I tell her that or say anything about it she pretty much flips out on me. So I'll just go to the wedding reception with her, sit there and not really talk to anyone, act polite and try to not be too self conscious. Did this once last year, and it pissed me off then just about as much as its gonna piss me off today. She'll get upset about her family not talking to her and looking down on her when she's not even willing to talk to them about being a lesbian. I dunno.... just little things that I can't stand but she doesn't understand how it might make me uncomfortable. I'll deal. But it just sucks when I know that I really need to be reading and cleaning and getting ready for my trip.
I'll try not to complain so much next time.
later...
Good luck at the wedding! Sounds like something I would dread too. I'm supposed to go with a friend to a wedding this Friday as his "date" because his family doesn't know he's gay. It's so hard when families are unwilling to accept the sexuality of one of its members. Many people never find love. Those that do are the luckiest regardless of what sex or color that love comes in. I hope it all goes well for you both.
Don't forget to drop me a line or catch me online before you go to London!! Are you going have access to the computer while you're there?