Got through my hellish day of classes today, and now that I'm home I actually don't feel overwhelmed or consumed. Maybe I'll actually get some of my classwork due tuesday done before the weekend starts. Its doubtful, but hey.. it could happen. My room still needs to be fuckin cleaned and I need to redo my walls. I got a bunch of gorgeous Marilyn Monroe stuff to put up from Christmas.. and its just layin in my room still. Need to get a frame for my gorgeous photo that I got for Christmas (from the ever-talented Roarke Sharlow). Thinking of posting lyrics, poems and quotes all over my one wall. Inspiring, depressing, any ones that I love.
Starting to realize that I'm not limited to what other people think of me. So fucking what if one person thinks I'm quiet and sweet, another thinks I'm just a fucking stuck-up bitch, and others think I'm an attention whore, energy sucker, complainer, whiney-ass bitch. I can be all of the above. Recognizing that previously, once someone has formed an opinion of me and made it known.. I allow myself to live up to their shallow expectations of me and not push the envelope, so as not to disturb their precious equilibrium. Well.. FUCK THAT. I know that I care far too much about what people think of me.. but maybe if I start pretending that I don't give a fuck.. I'll just get used to the pretending and it'll become reality.
On a side note...... I think I'm finally gonna get fuckin trashed this weekend. Also I can't wait til NIN! My Crissy's friend, Jess (who totally fuckin rocks) is gonna meet us there. Love her. Total lipstick lesbian. lol. anywho.... she's bringing drugs maybe? hmm... I dunno. What happens at the concert.. stays at the concert. Or not.. you know I'll probably tell ya. I so wish it were March 7th already!!!
I'm all over the damn place today.. also need to get crackin on finding what type of flower tat I want. My sister and I are gonna get the same one, and my grandma is going to draw it. How fuckin awesome is that? Yep, I know.. you're all jealous!!
Starting to realize that I'm not limited to what other people think of me. So fucking what if one person thinks I'm quiet and sweet, another thinks I'm just a fucking stuck-up bitch, and others think I'm an attention whore, energy sucker, complainer, whiney-ass bitch. I can be all of the above. Recognizing that previously, once someone has formed an opinion of me and made it known.. I allow myself to live up to their shallow expectations of me and not push the envelope, so as not to disturb their precious equilibrium. Well.. FUCK THAT. I know that I care far too much about what people think of me.. but maybe if I start pretending that I don't give a fuck.. I'll just get used to the pretending and it'll become reality.
On a side note...... I think I'm finally gonna get fuckin trashed this weekend. Also I can't wait til NIN! My Crissy's friend, Jess (who totally fuckin rocks) is gonna meet us there. Love her. Total lipstick lesbian. lol. anywho.... she's bringing drugs maybe? hmm... I dunno. What happens at the concert.. stays at the concert. Or not.. you know I'll probably tell ya. I so wish it were March 7th already!!!
I'm all over the damn place today.. also need to get crackin on finding what type of flower tat I want. My sister and I are gonna get the same one, and my grandma is going to draw it. How fuckin awesome is that? Yep, I know.. you're all jealous!!
Jealous my ass, NIN sucks balls, ha ha. YOu should be more jealous that I WON"T be there, although lipstick Lesbians are cool, ha ha ha............L8er.........AJ