Well aparently I've gone a week forgetting SG exists. SOrry my loves. I'm still not used to the new set up and my life's just been crazy lately. I'm still confused, but about bigger issues like god and life and death and all that jazz. Anyways.. I'm getting ready for London. I leave on July 15th and return the 29th. I'm pretty sure I'm going...
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Work has been far too busy lately, I feel that I'm working far too many hours and yet my paycheck is still lacking. Need to save up for London and that's not really working since I've been trying to shop my way out of depression. (Not a good idea, and quite self-defeating, I know)
Feeling incredibly confused lately, just in general.. about almost every aspect...
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Feeling incredibly confused lately, just in general.. about almost every aspect...
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gamma:
Hey hun, sounds like you aren't having a very good start to the summer either 
I know how you feel because my head does the same thing. If I hear one negative thing about myself I obsess about it until I either make myself so upset that I cry, or so angry that I plot revenge. And I know this is not a constructive way to deal with it. Life is just so confusing and fucked up most of the time...we are brave souls who stay alive and fight the fight everyday. I go to therapy but precisely for the reason you listed: It helps me to figure things out, keeps me grounded, and in other words, gives me an excuse not to have to face anything on my own I suppose. I wish it would get easier for you because I know what it feels like to be tortured inside constantly.
We need to get together sometime soon
I know how you feel because my head does the same thing. If I hear one negative thing about myself I obsess about it until I either make myself so upset that I cry, or so angry that I plot revenge. And I know this is not a constructive way to deal with it. Life is just so confusing and fucked up most of the time...we are brave souls who stay alive and fight the fight everyday. I go to therapy but precisely for the reason you listed: It helps me to figure things out, keeps me grounded, and in other words, gives me an excuse not to have to face anything on my own I suppose. I wish it would get easier for you because I know what it feels like to be tortured inside constantly.
We need to get together sometime soon
... Not completely sure if I'm thrilled about this new setup or not. It looks nice, but I'm a bit confused. Anyways... I got sun/wind-burned on my face yesterday.. I'm tired and out of it.. and need to clean my room. Possibly an update with more substance shall follow soon.
gamma:
Yeah I feel the same way about the new site although now I'm getting used to where everything is. It sure does look pretty. However, did you know that there is now a time limit on editing comments that you post in someone's journal? Guess that means we all have to be extra careful before writing something stupid 
How's your summer going so far? I'm in summer classes and for my first class I have 8 books to read in 6 weeks....UG! I can't wait until I'm out and don't have to read anymore....well at least not for academic reasons!
How's your summer going so far? I'm in summer classes and for my first class I have 8 books to read in 6 weeks....UG! I can't wait until I'm out and don't have to read anymore....well at least not for academic reasons!
... I don't completely feel like me lately.
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blossy:
I hope that you are feeling more like you soon! The only thing that sucks is that my hair is naturally that dark so when I try to do something funky with it I have to bleach the crap outta it to get it to work, meh anyway.
gamma:
If you are having a crisis over the future then you and I are definitely following the same path! Having trouble deciding what I wanna do with the rest of my life...no, actually I know what I want to do but how to go about doing it is the question. I wish I would had this crisis when I was a little younger
I miss chattin' with you too...class starts tonight but I should be on either after that or sometime this week
I miss chattin' with you too...class starts tonight but I should be on either after that or sometime this week
My parents bought a hot tub 
I put my air conditioner in all by myself (and that fucker must weigh 40 lbs) And for some reason I almost felt pretty today. It was a decent day.
Tomorrow I'll be training the summer hotel manager, who will be taking my position as I become a personal assistant for our executive director. Debating if and when I...
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I put my air conditioner in all by myself (and that fucker must weigh 40 lbs) And for some reason I almost felt pretty today. It was a decent day.
Tomorrow I'll be training the summer hotel manager, who will be taking my position as I become a personal assistant for our executive director. Debating if and when I...
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gamma:
You should definitely ask for a raise! They should definitely pay you more now that you have the fancy schmancy title of "personal assistant to the executive director"
I'm now sending you a private message about why I haven't been online ... message me back definitely!
I'm now sending you a private message about why I haven't been online ... message me back definitely!
Well.. yea I'm slacking on uploading pics and such. Oh well... its nice out and I'm trying to not spend so much time on the damn computer.
An actual update.. last night I went out to a gay club with my gf, sister, cousin, friend and his friend and saw a bunch of ppl Crissy and I know there. It was a really good, hot,...
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An actual update.. last night I went out to a gay club with my gf, sister, cousin, friend and his friend and saw a bunch of ppl Crissy and I know there. It was a really good, hot,...
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blossy:
Looks like you had a heck of a good time! Yeppers, gay guys can be TONS of fun, and they LOVE cleavage and boobs, slightly obsessed with them and all, at least most of my friends who are gay and guys do....
I'm back from vacation.. a bit tired and my room is now an incredible disaster. Anyways.. I had a good time, and I'll be sure to put up some pics of the vaca soon. Talk to ya all later!!
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gamma:
Can't wait to see the pics! Alas, I'm finishing up papers since this is my finals week so you might not see much of me online but I promise to be back in full swing after this nightmare is over
so you might not see much of me online but I promise to be back in full swing after this nightmare is over
gamma:
I LOVE the fact that you are wearing a Hooters shirt
I am finally DONE!! Just emailed my final paper this morning so things will be back to normal for about a week until summer classes begin...uggg!
I am finally DONE!! Just emailed my final paper this morning so things will be back to normal for about a week until summer classes begin...uggg!
Well.. I'm officially done for the semester. Off to North Carolina earrrrrrly Saturday mornin, so I'll be back in a lil over a week.
Later loves...
Later loves...
badrobot:
Chat when you get back then!
Just in case anyone wondered... the equivalent of 12 drinks.. in two hours.. on an empty stomach... is not always the best idea ever. Oh well.. I had a good time, and there will be photodocumentation as soon as my friends get em online.
I needed it... this week is finals week. Can't wait til this is all done. Outer Banks, NC on Saturday!!!
I needed it... this week is finals week. Can't wait til this is all done. Outer Banks, NC on Saturday!!!
gamma:
Have a great time on your trip! I know you need it! How long are you going to be gone for? Hope finals are going well...I'm procrastinating as usual
gamma:
Excellent! I'm so glad for you! It's definitely time to put the schoolwork to rest and enjoy yourself. I won't be fully completed until the second to the last week in May ... UGG!
Well.. my uncle's surgery went well. They got 98% of the tumor. Unfortunately they determined that it was cancerous, so now they'll be starting radiation and chemotherapy to clear up the rest.
I have two papers (one that is just a major revision) and one final exam left, and then I am done for the semester.
Hoping I'll be back to feeling like me soon.
I have two papers (one that is just a major revision) and one final exam left, and then I am done for the semester.
Hoping I'll be back to feeling like me soon.
gamma:
Ugg...I have 2 15-20 page papers and a smaller paper on Irish poetry due all around the same time. I also have to get my proposal signed and submitted for my honors thesis before the end of this semester. I envy you right about now
Well the 3 presentations didn't go too bad today. Just a really long day for me.
Found out tonight that my uncle is in the hospital (ICU), he was experiencing a horrible headache and tunnel vision. Turns out he has a mass on his brain, possibly a brain tumor that was pushing on his optic nerve.
Honestly, I don't think I can deal with anymore...
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Found out tonight that my uncle is in the hospital (ICU), he was experiencing a horrible headache and tunnel vision. Turns out he has a mass on his brain, possibly a brain tumor that was pushing on his optic nerve.
Honestly, I don't think I can deal with anymore...
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badrobot:
In London? When is she auditioning suitable males?
Nothing worse than a poorly family; being ill yourself is ok (relatively speaking) but it's horrible when it's the ones around you...
Nothing worse than a poorly family; being ill yourself is ok (relatively speaking) but it's horrible when it's the ones around you...
gamma:
I'm still around...just been super busy with the end of the semester crap. My semester isn't done until 5/25 and then summer classes start on 6/5 so not much of a summer for me
Any idea why he went gray? You will HAVE to bring me up to speed on the whole thing
Any idea why he went gray? You will HAVE to bring me up to speed on the whole thing
3 presentations tomorrow, plus a tutoring party that hasn't really been organized yet.
One paper, one tutoring project due this week.
Two papers, big webquest project due next week along with one final exam.
I'll get through it... somehow.
One paper, one tutoring project due this week.
Two papers, big webquest project due next week along with one final exam.
I'll get through it... somehow.
So, needless to say I'm going to miss you while you're gone. I know I haven't been online much anymore. Usually it's first thing in the morning because by the time I get home from work and classes I'm just too damn tired to get online and chat. However, we will definitely chat it up before you leave. And, of course, most definitely when you come back.
I'm just soooo sick of the same old people, ya know? I'm sure once I stop returning phone calls and emails from these people they will finally get the hint. Or we can hope anyway!
I wouldn't mind a boob grab from you every now and then because at least you wouldn't treat them as if they were toys to be bounced around and fondled roughly, nor would you be so fascinated by them that they would be the first thing you'd want to see when we hung out