jennygolucky

so I'm sitting in the airport, no one is here.... i can't believe i got here so early ( im usually always late ) but here's my current situation that i need feedback on.

So it seems that lately there are numerous men that want to be in my life. Usually I say no but its turned into them either begging or saying their not going anywhere. And being myself I don't have the balls to tell them to get lost. There are 3 to 4 guys that I am referring to, and they are all nice, hard working men but for some reason I am just not interested.

The first man in this situation is one of my managers at work, I went on a few dates with him, and he dropped the L word on me about 3 weeks into me knowing him, he is a baseball player and he hit a home run at one of his games and got the ball and put it in my car and wrote "i love you" on it. Its creepy enough that he went in my car without my knowledge but to write I love you without knowing how I felt in return. So I told him a few months back that I wanted to focus on myself and my up and coming career (lame excuse I know, but in reality I wanted to scream 'you sweated severely when we had sex and I thought I was drowning!!!' (yea I did the nasty with him... mistake #1) But now he has told me that I'm too beautiful to be angry at and he only wants to be with me and he'll wait until I come around, but he's not waiting, he's texting me constantly telling me how selfish I am and how great of a guy he is, well if he's telling me this and I'm not seeing it, somethings wrong.

Guy #2 is one of my roommates best friend, he started off as just a 'fuck buddy' (for lack of a better term) We had fantastic sex on numerous occasions and cuddled after (i'm not a cuddler...) He is not the most attractive of men but has a great personality and is a chef.... which is awesome. I laid the facts out to him before we even hopped in bed, I told him that I didn't want anything more than sex and a drinking buddy and he obliged. We never planned random sexcapades it always just worked out that he was over hanging out with my roommate and we ended up in my room... having some adult fun. I did as I said I would and only had sex with him besides the two times we went to lunch, and I'll admit I failed to reply to a few texts he sent. But lately when I would come home from work /school if he were at my house he would immediately say he had to leave, make an awkward comment ( like "bye fine mama" and shook my hand ) i later got a text one night last week apologizing for him acting so awkward and saying that he liked me more than he had planned on and felt uncomfortable around me, to which I responded "no worries we'll just have to get drunk and make it less awkward" not the smartest I know.

Guy # 3 is one of my roommates.... which is the most awkward situation because he is also one of my very best friends. He decided to spill his heart to me one night at the bar because we are both really not people oriented and decided to sit in the corner of the smoking pit and talk amongst ourselves. He told me that he had not planned on feeling how he does for me but it slapped him in the face and he can not ignore it because I am the closest he's ever gotten to his dream girl. He and I have slept next to each other two times, once was good enough for me but I didn't have the guts to tell him to go downstairs. He is not the most attractive but he and I have so much in common and we're very comfortable talking to each other. I told him I did not want to date because I have plans to move to NYC for a job I have lined up after I get done with school. I haven't figured this one out yet.... he was always the one giving me advice for these stalkerish men that love me and he is so disappointed in himself that he fell in the same category but he says he can not avoid it or ignore it. He also says he has no idea what it is about me that makes men constantly do this ( this is a new thing, by the way, men never used to swoon this bad. )

finally, guy #4 ish is a funny one because he created a lot of drama in my life 2 years ago. He is my old boss's son and also the guy I slept with one drunken night while I was beginning talks with my now ex-boyfriend. He sent me a text from an unfamiliar number a few weeks back asking where I had got my sleeve done... we've been chatting ever since, its just funny how things work out because he and I hated each other 2 years ago. I can't tell if he is out to get something or is genuine ( I don't really know if I'm unintentionally doing this for revenge or not ) but like they say keep your friends close and your enemies closer. We'll see.

So this is my situation.... funny thing is I don't really like any of them and none of them are actually my type ( the tattooed free thinking artist with great style and really nice teeth. lol)

Currently: sitting in the airport avoiding an old creepers stare listening to James Taylor and typing furiously.
Have a happy day everyone!