jennybadass

Ok so today I feel sorry for myself ... Next month it will be a year since I lost my dad and my world flipped upside down .. My uncle screwed me outta everything that my dad owned except a pocket watch and some of my dads old letters .. I find out last night that my uncle is very sick and that he could die .. On one hand I feel really bad for him but on the other I hate him so much for abandoning me when i needed him the most that I dont care ... I know this makes me seem really evil and uncaring but he hurt me so bad that I cant help it .. So whats the natural solution .. Email everyone you ever wronged and try to make good with them <-- mind you this was a good idea at three in the morning .. So I do this and get bombarded with people saying oh its kewl but this and this and this about you blows and on second thought no I still hate you ... Please proceed to drop dead .. So me trying to make good with everyone has backfired and I feel worse knowing that even though I have changed people still think Im evil and that I was the only one in the whole world that was wrong .. Well Im sorry and I can say that a zillion times and it doesnt fucking matter ... What the hell do these people want from me .. And what can my uncle possible expect from me .. I know that someone on here may read this and it applies to him to I just couldnt remember his email at the time ... So _______ Im sorry ... I know that I was wrong but so were you .. Im a different person now as Im sure you are so could you please forgive and try to forget what went wrong four fucking years ago .. I didnt mean to hurt you but you hurt me to .. Get over it and stop hating me ok .. Things change . Ok my bitch fit it now over .. Thanks for taking the time to read this and have a wonderful day