jenniebones

i had a startling dream last night...that needs further explanation,because,well,there's a back story.

so, rewind almost exactly a year ago when i was breaking up with my ex girlfriend, lorena, for good. we had been living together as roommates with separate rooms,but we were on and off, hot and cold. she had just moved out, but we were still hanging out as friends, something we had always managed to do. i had met my current girlfriend,abby through her. abby invited her to some frat party, they made out the whole time and i made out with some other friend of hers, she came over after the party and that was the final nail in the coffin for her.i was still all about this girl though and there was still a chance in my mind...haha. so stupid.

anyway, almost exactly a year ago, i drove to lorena's mom's to pick her up so we could hang out with abby again. we were supposed to go to some bar but ended up at abby's friend alex' house. this is where abby and i had our first kiss. in these days, abby was a real alcoholic and was totally wasted. me, lorena and abby were the only girls there and a whole bunch of guys. drunk guys. including this guy alex whose house it was. they were passing abby's drunk ass around litterally, because she was swaying and stumbling. her mom was out of town and she was supposed to stay there...with alex.

*segway* i learned later that she and alex had slept together in the past

i didn't like this idea. i felt she was gonna get taken advantage of...so bad. when lorena went to the bathroom, i sat on her lap in the kitchen, and kissed her. it wasn't some drunk ass kiss. it was a nice passionate one and it felt awesome to kiss someone with such passion after lorena. needless to say, the boys were quite amused and the three of us continued to get harassed the whole time.

when it came time for lorena and i to leave, i decided to drive abby's car home for her. i was drunk but not quite as wasted as poor abby. my drunkenness was evident the next day when her car was parked all crooked and sticking out on the curb. but whatev. i saved her that night and after that she got my number from lorena, texted me to say thank you, then texted me to hang out alone with her and the rest is history.
alex turns out to be a good guy, he was just really drunk and horny that night i get it....yadda yadda yadda. he's cool he's a good friend of ours.

so this dream i have. alex, this guy is alone in a room of a house where a party is going on. i leave abby for a second and stumble into a room like a padded cell where alex is sitting and reading. he's crying. he asks me why i havent been there for him. i kneel beside him and hold him. i tell him i love him, the way i tell abby i love her, like it's been him i've been dating all this time....or it seems this way. i keep telling him how much i love him and what a sweet guy he is, all the things i feel and would say about abby. then suddenly, i remember abby and remind alex of her. he says, " i know i love her too" and then it become clear that in my dream, not only am i in a heterosexual relationship, but i'm in a three way relationship. me, alex, and abby. WHAT THE FUCKKKK!

well, i don't think i could date a man again, but if i did, hahahaha....
petite, effeminate alex would be just my type........ugh.