im having a good day off im in the middle of a major remodel good time to declutter this place! would like to say a big thank you for all the sg who accepted my friend requests! i appreciate it! so had some time off had alot of time to think bout everything,there is alot on my mind lately prolly too much to fit in here lol.but hey it all good i suppose,im a positive happy person just tired of dealing with other ppl stupidity! but thats another story. im having problems at my job that ive been at 16yrs,i want to leave and go back to school for photography. but every single person including the ppl at work tell me i cant. so this has been soing on since april. so happy to have projects to take my mind off of all that stuff. im going to living in a construction zone for a while but it will be worth it in the end! so i think thats all i have for now gonna go eat and play with my kitties! peace and love jen
jen2065:
yep little sad face says it all im not doing too good today girls. why is it some guys have the power to make us feel like shit,then turn rite around i love you! 5 months ago i would have told u that you were right,so now in the end of august with him four hrs away, and im here in hutch working at my job,remoledling the house,raising two kitties! dont get me wrong things cld be better but hes not making it easy on me,i know that the current situation is all my fault,but why should i be the only one that has to give up everything. i go back and forth but realistically my live,my family are here.i love this town and im tired of all his negetivity bout everything.they say that love is the most wonderfull thing,i say it is when both ppl are willing to work at it. 50\50is nt that what they say it should be,i dont really know anymore. i take comfort in the fact that he still has stuff here and will eventually have to caom and get it,and face me to do it. so my fellow suicide girls if anyone is reading my blogs at all plz let me know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i appreaciate any comments and feedback! 
well im gonna go and drown my sorrows in chcoclate! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'll be back after i emerge from my chocolate coma! laters jen!
yep little sad face says it all im not doing too good today girls. why is it some guys have the power to make us feel like shit,then turn rite around i love you! 5 months ago i would have told u that you were right,so now in the end of august with him four hrs away, and im here in hutch working at my job,remoledling the house,raising two kitties! dont get me wrong things cld be better but hes not making it easy on me,i know that the current situation is all my fault,but why should i be the only one that has to give up everything. i go back and forth but realistically my live,my family are here.i love this town and im tired of all his negetivity bout everything.they say that love is the most wonderfull thing,i say it is when both ppl are willing to work at it. 50\50is nt that what they say it should be,i dont really know anymore. i take comfort in the fact that he still has stuff here and will eventually have to caom and get it,and face me to do it. so my fellow suicide girls if anyone is reading my blogs at all plz let me know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i appreaciate any comments and feedback! well im gonna go and drown my sorrows in chcoclate! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'll be back after i emerge from my chocolate coma! laters jen!