well finallty its a cool overcast day big change from the heat and humidity thats plagauing ks rite now. had some rain yesterday so as i sit here contenplating many things. fall is almost here my fave time of year love to see the leaves change the nice cool air,also makes me sad. i lost my best friend to a car crash in 1992. so makes me think if she were here would she be proud of the chioices i ve made recently.are we defined by the choices we make if i woke up tomorrow and jumped out of a plane or made a left turn instead of a right turn somewhere.if i walked into my job and quit walked out and never looked back,would i be better off than i am now. im feeling really introspective right now maybe my life needs balance,i ahve great friends and family but sometimes i feel like its not enough.okay im done being all doom and gloom i just need an outlet for all the stuff in my head.. i welcome any feedback that anyone has to offer! well ive up since5am getting sleepy and i think i hear my bed calling me good nite to all the suicide girls! as always peace and love jen!