okay lets see ive learned a lot in the past few months my boyfriend had all these plans,but like all palns there were obstacles. he quit our job first im still there then he moved four hrs away. when somone tells you i cant do something it makes me mad. understand something first i hate my job but every time i try to leave they make up bs excuse to keep me there. my family tells me id be giving up to much if i left,my bf tells me to leave,sell my house leave the town i grew up in,leave all the family i have here too. so whos right and whos wrong? the past couple of months i think no one is right had lots of nights up crying confused im tired of ppl every where i turn saying that they know whats good for me. seems like the only ppl i can trust are my two cats gracie and lucy! so as the months go on and thoughts turn to fall and the seasons change,im beginning to think whats best for me is space,i need to concentrate on me,take care of me. if i want to go out sith friends for cocktails then thats what im going to do! but i must say i think my time at my job mite be limited if things keep going the way they are,which would be wonderful for me! leaves me time to go back to school. i love photography alot of my stuff is black and white pics.so maybe in the next few months i:ll figure out what the hell im doing in all this,maybe i will move one day become a wife and a mother. or maybe i:ll stay in my homeown that i love find a new job become a photographer. when i figure out what happens next maybe or maybe not i"ll blog bout it. so even if no one reads this it makes me feels better having a place to put thoughts into words. so i would appreciate any feedback if anyone wishes to do so. peace and love always jen