jellibean

AHHH
lets update a lil here huh?

its my last semester @ uncw
(plus a summer session )
and then
well I dont know

I would love to move home work for 6 months save $
and travel all over
europe the US whatever

prolly wont happen
but Id also LOVE to join the peace core
or maybe do americorps
or move to some random place
like colorado or chicago
and go to grad school

sigh
I have no idea...when it comes to this topic
I feel like a crazy balloon that keeps gettin blown up
and deflated again

to make the issue more complicated
Ive recently aquired a boy haha
and I do think that one day, not too far away
I m ight wake up next to him and think
hey... I love this guy
WHICH TOTALLY FREAKS ME OUT
esp since im on the verge of leaving and doin god knows what
whatever makes me happy
and I dont know how he'll fit in all of that

this is actually the 'worst' thing Ive got to deal with in my life right now
so Im glad to say
Im doin damn good
Im super excited about my barfday
22 and throwin a fiesta
(I really will never tire of gettin old)

it all feels so final
2006, almost another year older, and quickly approachin the end of 4 years here

ah well
let me end by sayin

my panthers fuckin own
and I cant wait till they make it to the superbowl
bitches