jellibean

NOTE: I will NOT apologize for somethin I didnt do
nor is it ok for someone to be a bitch for no gd reason


exams are done early for me
the weekend looks to be rockin (anyways)
AND the funniest thing happened to me yesterday
I was gettin in my car and pullin out of a parkin lot
when this guy in a white mustang...
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I want to cry
no one should be in a library for over 5 hours

let it go
just let it f'in go
let go
let go
let go
let go

I love it when a guy goes shirtless
and wears his pants low enough
so I can see that SEXY V
and if he's got ink right there
mmmmmmmmmmmm
sweet sweet orgasm

I need a lil rock in my life

So I was wonderin about DEVOTION
I dont think I know what it really is yet
I look at my parents
and that is devotion
I dont think I know what it is to stick with somethin
or stand by someone
even if it kills you
or worse numbs your soul...
hmmm devotion

I've always felt I was devoted to my job aka my kids...
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I was drivin around yesterday and I can feel it
S U M M E R
it was like a sweet pain in the center of my gut
the weather was so nice and the air hit me
and that was it
I was done.....The urge to up and run around
butt ass naked completly took over me lol
I didnt of course
but someday...
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I had my wisdom teeth out last friday
and let me tell you
I dont know how anorexic people do a DAMN thing
all Ive been eatin is mush and soup and ick
Im STARVIN like marvin yall

I have no energy and I get woosy at work
and Im just irritable and tired

lol Im glad the whole experience wasnt that painful
I was...
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damn it all
I GIVE UP

he's right
you cant depend on anyone
it never matters how many nice things you do
you will get shit on

what am I supposed to think now?
that people are crap?

I dont expect more from my friends
than I would do for them
or have done for them

what the fuck

"tell me again how we'll be lovers and friends"

so I listen to the radio
as background noise (hence the usher song lol)
b/c when its so silent I cant focus on my work
rather I focus too much on random thoughts
and not the book and questions on repeated measure designs
sigh
its almost 2 and Im still not done
but I cant focus...
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I <3 Roadtrips
Im gettin a shower
gettin my shit packed
and gettin on outta here
for the rest of the week
I love the drive to VA
its pretty and the weather is relatively nice
aka my windows will be down
and the music will be WAY up

happy wednesday
....and happy rest of the week sluts

........anyone ever feel EXTREME guilt
even though...
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"This is a lesson in procrastination.
I kill myself because I'm so frustrated
And every single second that I put it off
means another lonely night
I got to race the clock"

damn
I suck @school stuff
I always put the stuff I dont wanna do
off till the last minute

I did, in the midst of my procrastinating, go see the ring 2
that...
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