jejunebug

when i get a really clear vision of what i want to do.. that's when it feels i could hardly be farther from being able to do it.
i think all the time that if i could just play better i know i could take everything by storm, i could fucking rule it. but.. i mean.. how long has it been since i started and i still feel far away from it. it's disheartening that i'm never at least close to doing it the way i want.
i dunno, i'm probably just ranting.