I've been in a serious funk lately.
Work has been highly stressful lately. I'm being ran into the ground and I'm seriously debating if it's worth it. I'm being paid decently and I like my hours. I'm off work before 5, so that's nice. I don't work weekends or most holidays. When I'm doing the job of three people with my boss always constantly changing his mind on what he wants me to do, it gets stressful.
I work with a program that helps back-up our user's files and folders. I've been working on getting this service installed on several machines to limit the amount of bandwidth the program uses. The service doesn't work with several users, so they were going to move to the new version of the service. I found out Friday afternoon that I'll need to find 50 more users to install this service on.
I've also been working on getting Cisco phones for some of the offices and imaging our virtual machines. Which I've been doing an upwards of twenty a day and I have to set them up for the users. All of this takes hours and right now I'm working hard to catch everyone else up; while my own work is falling by the wayside.
Personally life has been hectic. I'm not going to go into too many details. My son's mother has been causing issues with not potty training him when she has him, moving into a horrible neighborhood, and starting a fight because I wanted to know why he wasn't napping for her. Which I have no problem with, when he's here with me. Talking to her is always a problem. She's paranoid and believes that everyone is out to get her. I usually just try to keep my mouth shut as avoidance is the best tactic with her.
My writing has pretty much dried up. I've had a couple of ideas for stories, but nothing comes out. I sit there and stare at the screen. I have some serious writers block. It always passes, I know, but everytime it happens, it's hard to deal with.
Mentally I haven't been myself. I've been dealing with this overwhelming sense of alienation and loneliness. Maybe not loneliness. I just feel like I don't belong anywhere. IT's hard to deal with when you really have no clue on how to fight it.
Work has been highly stressful lately. I'm being ran into the ground and I'm seriously debating if it's worth it. I'm being paid decently and I like my hours. I'm off work before 5, so that's nice. I don't work weekends or most holidays. When I'm doing the job of three people with my boss always constantly changing his mind on what he wants me to do, it gets stressful.
I work with a program that helps back-up our user's files and folders. I've been working on getting this service installed on several machines to limit the amount of bandwidth the program uses. The service doesn't work with several users, so they were going to move to the new version of the service. I found out Friday afternoon that I'll need to find 50 more users to install this service on.
I've also been working on getting Cisco phones for some of the offices and imaging our virtual machines. Which I've been doing an upwards of twenty a day and I have to set them up for the users. All of this takes hours and right now I'm working hard to catch everyone else up; while my own work is falling by the wayside.
Personally life has been hectic. I'm not going to go into too many details. My son's mother has been causing issues with not potty training him when she has him, moving into a horrible neighborhood, and starting a fight because I wanted to know why he wasn't napping for her. Which I have no problem with, when he's here with me. Talking to her is always a problem. She's paranoid and believes that everyone is out to get her. I usually just try to keep my mouth shut as avoidance is the best tactic with her.
My writing has pretty much dried up. I've had a couple of ideas for stories, but nothing comes out. I sit there and stare at the screen. I have some serious writers block. It always passes, I know, but everytime it happens, it's hard to deal with.
Mentally I haven't been myself. I've been dealing with this overwhelming sense of alienation and loneliness. Maybe not loneliness. I just feel like I don't belong anywhere. IT's hard to deal with when you really have no clue on how to fight it.
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