jeffx20

This weekend has a bitter sweet feel to it.

For one, my wife and I are celebrating our one year of knowing each other. We had our first date last year on St. Patrick's day. We are heading out to Chicago in the morning for a Bulls game and some hotel sex. Because hotel sex is awesome! Other than that we don't have much planned. We will be seeing the green river, taking some pictures, and relaxing. We started the weekend with both of us getting off of work early. I got the oil changed and we went out to eat at PF Changs which is our favorite restaurant. It was a nice relaxing afternoon in preparation for the weekend.

However it'll be a weekend spent without my son. Which isn't the first weekend I've spent without him, and won't be the last. It's hard to go into a weekend without him when I'm doing something I'm wanting to do. It's one thing if his mother wants him for the weekend or when I had to work. I guess I feel selfish doing something I want to instead of hanging out with him. Especially when I only get weekends to spend with him anyways. I know I'm not a bad parent, everyone says how great of a father I am. Weekends are hard to get into thinking I'm letting him down. Which I'm not, but it feels like it at this moment.