Monday May 23, 2005

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i stopped smoking, accidentally. its weird. i smoked almost a pack a day. ive been smoking for ten years. ive been smoking longer than ive known how to drive. longer than ive been having sex. then i just stopped, on wednesday.

it will be a week soon.

this is so weird. i didn't do it on purpose. i just kinda stopped. i didnt feel well so i went a day without and then it was like" well maybe i can do another, just to see"....

what the fuck is going on? have i accidentally quit??!!!
this is supposed to be hard-but its not at all!!! i could go across the street and buy cigs but i wont do it because i don't actually need a cig right now. ...WTF??? its like i just forgot that i was a smoker for ten years.

this is so bizarre. i need a cigarette.

nope, i'm lying. i do need breakfast though. ciao ciao!
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cineman:
Good for you, accident or not! I hope it sticks. I am a very light social smoker myself - as in, I buy a pack of Sherman MCDs and it lasts me a month, including giving half of them away to curious friends - but not smoking at all would be better.

And thanks re: your comments on my finishing the film. I, too, have a drawer full of abandoned projects - many rightly so, some unfortunately - so I can relate to your friend also, but this film was designed to spearhead a big career change for me, so there was no way I was not going to finish it. And many of those unfinished projects get a new life as I revisit them over time. As a matter of fact, I have recently dusted off two of them and am working on presenting them as part of an overall body of work, so there's still hope for your friend.

But I really understand the frustration of giving so much to a project that someone doesn't finish, too; I have worked with numerous friends over the years and seen some great concepts wither and die and it's highly irritating. I wish them luck. smile
crushjunkie:
This entry should be a smokers anonymous motivational speech.

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