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jeckyl

South Africa

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Saturday Jun 01, 2013

Jun 1, 2013
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Hello everybunny, it's been a while.

I haven't been AWOL, I'm on the site for at least an hour everyday, I just struggle to think of cheerful things to write about because I'm not in the most cheerful of places in my life right now.

I finished my exams on Thusday all of which I failed because I couldn't stop crying long enough to actually study.
I don't think "depression" is even the right word for this anymore.whatever

ANYWAY, enough about that!!biggrin

Did you all see Tarion FP yesterday?? It's been SO long since we had an SA girl FP, it was really exciting for me! Especially since I'm such a huge Tarion fan!!love

At some point I'll get around to giving you all an update on my life but I really just.. Well I'd rather not right now.

Instead, I'm going to talk to you all about my hair.
Yes, my hair.
(I would like to now submit "Hair" as well as "Food" to the Powers That Govern for consideration to be added to the list of categories for blogs. Thank you.)

Over the years I have done very many unspeakable things to my hair and it surprises me that I still have any left.
It seems my inability to commit extends into my appearance and this has seen me spawn a great multitude of hair styles and colors and combinations that would make any sane human squirm.

So, without any further adieu, Jeckyl Suicide's hair timeline..

Once upon a six years ago, I was just a normal teenager, doing normal teenager things and having normal teenager problems(and hair)...


Normal Teenager Jeckyl

The transformation all started in my third of High School when I discovered this horrid trend known at the time as "Emo".

The first change was the fringe. My teachers referred to it as "the curtain".
To this day, I can't tell you how I saw through this thing for 3 years.


Emo Jeckyl going to school with a ridiculously over-sized bow in her hair

The first colour I put in my hair was actually from a can of hairspray and I was convinced it made me look pretty damn hardcore..


Hardcore Jeckyl

Of course then I discovered clip-in hair extensions and it all just went downhill from there.
I started doing combo's with black.
(Please note the evolution, or de-evolution rather, of my dress sense)


SPOILERS! (Click to view)


Black and blue


Black and red


Black and purple


Black and lilac


Black and fuck-knows-what-colour-that-was-supposed-to-be




And then, bless them, they decided to let me out of High School.

Without the constraints of school rules, I was now free to do with my hair whatever my little neon heart desired.
It dawned upon me that two colors was no longer enough!

This began the three-tone-craze..
(Again, God, those accessories. WHY)

It started kinda tame..


SPOILERS! (Click to view)


There was the red-black-blonde combo


The black-pink-blonde combo



The black-blue-pink combo


The purple-pink-black combo


The black-red-blue combo (also known as "Spider-woman")



Now, as you can see, we have entered the scene-hair phase of my life.
The motto here was "The bigger the hair, the closer to God". I read that quote somewhere and decided to swear by it.
In an attempt to outdo.. well.. myself, even three colors was no longer enough!
I give you the abridged version of the darkest year of my life.


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For a brief time there was hope while I first learned how to tease my hair into the distant relative of cousin-it (all the cool kids were doing it). So I temporarily returned to my naturally unnatural black hair.


Yes, there is a person under that mess.

But then, the holy floodgates of neon hairdye broke loose and I drowned in a sea bleach and garish combinations.


Pink-red-purple-black


Red-purple-blonde-black


Blonde-pink-red-black


Blonde-black-blue-purple

And.. for the grand finale..


Red-pink-blonde-blue-purple-black.




You might recognize this pic from the pageant I told you about, the night that launched my career.



Immediately, my style completely shifted.
Through my photo-shoots, I learned to drastically tone down my garish ways. The change was instantaneous.


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Jeckyl's first shoot ever

And as that year went on, I found myself wanting less and less to have big hair or to dress like I just fell in a tub of glitter and sequins.

This is around the time I shot my first set Abnormal Behaviour



I had blue in my hair, yes. But it was a far cry from the tumble weed I would've been rocking a year before.




And as time went on, and as I grew into, on, and through this site, and as my career progressed, I found myself changing more and more..

Okay, so now I'm usually wearing less clothes than I used to..



But, when I DO wear clothes, they're pretty damn classywink



I went through a green phase somewhere along the line..



That was around the time I shot Enviable



I got in touch with my playful side when I shot
SuicideGirls For Dummies



But then, I'm proud to say, I went back to my natural unnaturally black hair. And I've actually kept it for over a year!!biggrin


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All these changes I think can account for the more mature feel people say they get from my latest set Sublimate




The only change I've made since then is go shorter with my hair



And then shorter still..




I won't pretend to understand the reasoning behind the way I used to be. But, if I had to hazard a guess, I'd say I went through most of my life feeling like I was invisible.
I just wanted to be noticed, I wanted to stand out.
That's why I always had to have more piercings, more jewelry, more color. Because otherwise I felt like I'd just disappear.
But now I've realized that I don't need all of that for people to see me.
They see me fine just the way I am.
And I've lost that need I feel to always be more. I feel just as comfortable now to be natural as I did then to have all that sparkle around me.
And I think this is one of the many things I attribute to my joining this site.
Realizing that hey, even just Jeckyl minus all the frills, is still pretty cool.

So thank you once again, SG, for the very many ways in which you enrich our lives, without even realizing it.


New Jeckyl!

I hope you've all enjoyed my little hair timeline.

Until we meet again, I love you all!!kiss

VIEW 25 of 28 COMMENTS
minusfourdegrees:
Well, aspiring writer. This would be my first attempt at a full length work.

I'm glad to hear you're not doing any worse. Things will get better. No matter what, they always do.

Keep me posted on how you're doing?
Jun 26, 2013
ponycorn:
adorable <3
Jun 28, 2013

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