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1. Jeffrey Dahmer

Jeffrey Lionel Dahmer (May 21, 1960 - November 28, 1994) was an American serial killer and sex offender. Dahmer murdered 17 men and boys between 1978 and 1991, with the majority of the murders occurring between 1987 and 1991. His murders involved rape, dismemberment, necrophilia and cannibalism. On November 28, 1994, he was beaten to death by an inmate at the Columbia Correctional Institution, where he had been incarcerated.

Sadly, he was gay. (Yes, ladies, feel my pain)
But, let's be honest here.
If I was 20 years older, and gay, and happened to live in Milwaukee during that time, I'd be dead now.
I absolutely love this man.

What's really strange is that throughout the documentary, whilst they were describing his crimes and showing crime scene pics, I wasn't bothered. I was just perving over him.
And then at the end, when they said he was beaten to death by some degenerate-hope-he-burns-in-hell-for-all-eternity-psychopath in jail, I started crying.
I'm pretty convinced that I'm insane.


Quotes:

" This is the grand finale of a life poorly spent and the end result is just overwhelmingly depressing..... a sick pathetic, miserable life story, that's all it is"

"It's hard for me to believe that a human being could have done what I've done, but I know that I did it."










(currently my phone wallpaper *swoon*)

2. Richard Ramirez

Ricardo "Richard" Munoz Ramirez (born February 28, 1960) is a convicted serial killer awaiting execution on California's death row at San Quentin State Prison. Prior to his capture, Ramirez was dubbed the "Night Stalker" by the news media
Convicted of 47 felonies, including 14 murders.

I don't know if it's the bad-boy image or what. But he's hypnotizing.
He had groupies at his court proceedings. Yes. Groupies. Girls who'd giggle every time he turned to look at them.
Oh the folly of youth...

Quotes:

"I love to kill people. I love to watch them die. I would shoot them in the head and they would wiggle and squirm all over the place, and then just stop. Or I would cut them with a knife and watch their faces turn real white. I love all that blood."

"Even psychopaths have emotions. Then again, maybe not."

After being sentenced to death:
"No big deal death always comes with the territory I'll see you in Disneyland"









3. Ted Bundy

Theodore Robert "Ted" Bundy (born Theodore Robert Cowell; November 24, 1946 - January 24, 1989) was an American serial killer, rapist, kidnapper, and necrophile who assaulted and murdered numerous young women and girls during the 1970s and possibly earlier. After more than a decade of denials, he confessed shortly before his execution to 30 homicides committed in seven states between 1974 and 1978; the true total remains unknown, and could be much higher.

Here I think it's the arrogance, confidence factor.
I don't know. He just does it for me.







Quotes:

"We serial killers are your sons, we are your husbands, we are everywhere. And there will be more of your children dead tomorrow"

"I'm as cold a motherfucker as you've ever put your fucking eyes on. I don't give a shit about those people."

"What's one less person on the face of the earth, anyway?"

I'm going to try tone down the serial killer thing for a while because it's really freaking the hell out of my mother.
I tried to tell her that it's school related cause I'm a psyche major but she surprisingly pointed out that I've been obsessively researching this stuff since High School. (Didn't know she'd noticed )

Moving right along

The day after I posted my last blog, I received some SG stuff in the mail



This REALLY cheered me up! So thanks Powers That Govern!!

Body Mods

I got 2 new tats!!

Roses on my thigh/waist area



I read somewhere that red roses symbolize pure love, and I was sold.

I also finally got around to getting my septum pierced.

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4 particular SG's managed to give me that final push just because of how hot it looks on them.

Gallows


Bob


Opaque


Marceau


So I decided what the hay...






And it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would either..

Food

I tried baking last week to cheer myself up, it didn't work.
But I DID make some really great brownies.
They disappeared hella fast, don't even think they made it off the cooling rack.




A while ago, I did a 10 day fast, which wasn't so bad.
I ate only fruits, vegetables, water and bread.
It was kinda fun.

For my last meal, I had McDonalds.



It was soooooooo gooooood
And in the week leading up to the fast, I pigged out on all these goodies my dad bought.

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And after my fast ended, I had McD's again


.
They recently released this new product called "Cuppa Cake" and, as their most loyal customer, I had to test it out.


It was Godawful. Yeug.

I like KFC's Brownie Avalanche better.

I know you're all wondering where all these carbs go, and I do wonder the same thing myself.
Given that I eat take-out 5 times a week and haven't set foot in a gym or engaged in any form of exercise (aside from walking between the fridge and the couch at regular intervals during the day) in almost 4 years, I must put it down to good genes.
Lucky me.

Life in general

It's been really cold here lately, given that it's winter.

We've all been bundling up as best we can.
Here's my mum in her fake fur blanky (note: FAKE FUR!!)



We have a really nice fire-place that I never use because the smell gives me a headache





So I keep myself warm by eating lots of warm pudding


Milktart Sponge Puddding. You CANNOT die before eating this. You simply CANNOT!!


I looooves chocolate volcanoes.


Red Velvet waffle what whaaaaat..


Lately, I've been seriously considering the choice of celibacy.

Speaking of modelling...

I've been doing quite a bit these last few weeks, again in an attempt to cheer myself up.

I love doing fine art nudes because it really challenges me.
Last year in September I did a shoot with a photographer called Robert Russel.
It was a really great experience for me and I learnt a lot.

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Here's 2 shots from that shoot:





And then 2 weeks or so ago, I shot with him again



That was really fun for me. To see how much I've grown as a model since the last time we worked together.
Modelling has just been such a roller coaster for me since I started just over a year and a half ago.

Do you guys remember that music video I did with Autrum?
Well, it finished.



Here's some more behind the scenes pics..

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Autrum and I also did this cool Zombie shoot together.
I made this little trailer for it:




Behind the scenes...

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And some shoot pics:

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I had such a hard time concentrating at this shoot and not laughing cause Autrum kept making funny sounds in my ear and claiming that's what Zombie's sound like.
ROFL I love that girl.

The next week, I did a Catwoman shoot. It was LOADS of fun!

Here's some pics from that:

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And then I did a Boudoir shoot which was a lot girlier than I'm used to.
But I really love trying new things

More pics...
(I swear, I'm almost done)

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And THEN I did a really cute kinda Disney Princess/ Vampire shoot.
Absolutely LOVED the Make-up for this one!!

Pics...

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PHEW!!!

SG stuff

I've been doing some things for the SG Blog that I'm really excited about because I'm very enthusiastic about getting more invlolved in the site.

I submitted one of the cakes I posted in one of my older blogs and it got a kitchen feature.
And I also did an Agony Aunt column. of which I am very proud

AND NOW...

Because you've all been so patient

A few people have told me that my last set Enviable wasn't as good as my debut set Abnormal Behavior.

And I can take criticism, no hard feelings.





It just made me wanna put even more effort into my next set.

That's right, I have a new set!!

The thought process behind this set, you'll see is quite simple.
I talk a lot about what I think this site means and how I believe that people in general have no idea what Suicide Girls is about and it's frustrating to have to put up with just THE most ridiculous "WTF" faceial expression inducing, continous facepalm and smh comments, misconceptions, judgements and prejudices.

It is with this ideology that I, with the amazing camera skilfullness of the fabulous Talamia created:
Suicide Girls For Dummies.










Queued: 29 July 4a.m

I hate smiling, but there's a lot of smiling in this set so you better all be damn grateful!!

I will end this ridiculously long blog with my set intro:


This is for the hours you spent discussing questions that a 5 minute Google search would've answered

This is for the hundreds of arguments that a simple visit to the site could've prevented

This is for all the eye-rolls
Gritted teeth
Clenched fists
Facepalms

This is for every ridiculous myth
Offensive assumption
Judgemental remark

This is for your prudish aunt
Your pervy uncle
Your old-fashioned parents

This is for everyone whose neck you've wanted to ring
Face you wanted to punch
Groin you wanted to kick

This is Suicide Girls... For Dummies.


Have a great week everyone! I love you all!!