jebustheimpaler

I had this weird experience today... I went out to celebrate Bloomsday with a bunch of friends and I felt like I was outside myself looking in the whole time. I didn't drink so the only thing I could chalk it up to was being tired. But it was strange, a sensation of being in a dream but being completely lucid and awake. A description of the feeling doesn't do it justice. I really thought I was getting ill, so I left.

I think it started when my ex-girlfriend's arch-nemesis was introduced to me, and she said "Oh I KNOW him, I've met him many times before, but he was always attached to the OTHER." ... This was dishearting, I really don't need to be reminded of a lost-love yet again. I said nicely, "well we're no longer attached." She responded by flirting with me. That is evil. Pure manipulative evil. My ex NEVER yelled, ever. But this girl once made her scream at the top of her lungs "go away from me you fucking cunt."

I'm secure in my ability to embrace the void.