jdookie

I want her more than anything
i dream of her every minute I am awake
I sleep only to wake up wanting her more.
Be with me, it hurts being alone
love is at my doorstep but there is a chain on the door
let me in, let me in
open your mind, let me in
why must something be in the way,walk around
step...
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Today I start my new job with a radio show. Wish me luck. Hopefully, if everything goes well, You guys will be hearing me or at least some material that I wrote. Any other week in my life, this would be huge and all I would be talking about, BUT not this week. Ever since I called someone for her birthday last week, my life...
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Hello All. This morning at 1:00am I called someone I love and left a message.( I wrote 2 pages of notes to tell her but I got all flustered after the 1st paragraph and went freestyle.) I did expect a call back with a hello and a thank you but what I got was the best gift in forever. She called and left me a...
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Worked again and actually was better than yesterday, I like something and am going to get really good at this. So when I get my own show I can finally spit out all these great thoughts lingering in my spaced, dazed, confused, hazed brain that is still functioning after all the years of messing it up. Its getting fun to work and that can only...
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Worked my 2nd shift with a dj and it went nearly perfect, Wow I actually learned something,applied my skills to it, and did it. It feels good. Now just to get payed doing this forever. Anyone just stare at the computer screen and have nothing good to say,but the second you stop writing,the brain starts working. Well thats what hapens to me,well thats my story...
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Its raining alot in NY today and for some reason, it doesn't bother me at all. I am still having trouble being creative, I feels so much is there but I can't get it out of me. I'll figure it out and when I do,watch out world.

Day 7- Girls make the world go round and the world is a much better place with them.

ITs 3:00 in the morning, crack adawning, No birds humming,just pitch black silence. Its like nothing has happen,everything is in pause,soon it will get lighter and more and more chaos will occur.The beauty of night will be gone replaced by mumbling,fumbling dorks taking over the streets and roadways with waste and stupidity. Today starts the day we change things. I don't want to live a...
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What's up ya'll, what you got to say, whats up with you, me and my man ben gay. My brain is weird, sometimes it wants to change the world, sometimes it just watches the world go by. WHY O WHY? I wish i could be more organized and put it all together to actually change something since I feel I can do something. Don't know...
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I just realized I have over 12,000 songs on my i-tunes and I have tons of more cds to go. I have no clue when I'm gonna listen to any of it since something new will come out and of course I'll buy that too ( Fuckin cds are like crack rock to me, well when am not actually doing crack rock.) My brain is...
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Today I worked a gig by myself for the first time, that was cool. Worked with someone famous in the radio world,who's been around for 30 years or more. Fucked up once or twice but worked it out. I don't know about you but am fucking chilling tonight.good night am going to bed.

DAY 4-Feels good being down,step it up or go home bitch

Last night party was great. Its fun watching people act crazy,stupid,insane in the membrane. I didn't get to perform onstage since they started late. That sucked but can't say i cared that much. Its funny when you see everything happening in front of you and how the crowd looks like from onstage. Its also cool working in the back with the tech guys, they have...
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It's 5:00 and can't sleep, the ghost and ghoulins are keeping me up. Or it could be that I am going to be on stage in front of 1500 people and am still figuring out what to do. I can't wait to see what it looks like when your on a stage. Today was a boring day, it sucks when you spend your whole day...
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