I said that I wouldnt post a new journal entry until something good happened. Nothing that good has happened...but I am getting extra hours at work, which eleviates alot of worry. My biggest worry is court monday. I've recieved a few letters from attornies. I cant afford one though, so it's looking court appointed for me. I just want to avoid jailtime and excessive fines that I cant pay. I also need to get a new ID because mine was lost. I think that you need to have an ID for court though. I dont know. I wish I had attorney friends. Us poor people cant afford justice.
God I want to run away and start a new life so bad. If I got to spend time with my girl more then I think I'd be in a better mood. Right now we barely get to see each other. And we never have time alone to be with each other. It's hard to work and struggle and not have things to show for it. We struggle to survive. I want to work to live...not survive. Really live. Ya know? Well enough fucking whining from me. Sorry I dont have better shit to write lately. I really hope that soon that all changes. If I wasnt against organized religion I'd seriously go to church and pray for help and redemption. Yeah, Im at that point. Anyways, keep your fingers crossed for me that I dont have to do any time. Later kids.
God I want to run away and start a new life so bad. If I got to spend time with my girl more then I think I'd be in a better mood. Right now we barely get to see each other. And we never have time alone to be with each other. It's hard to work and struggle and not have things to show for it. We struggle to survive. I want to work to live...not survive. Really live. Ya know? Well enough fucking whining from me. Sorry I dont have better shit to write lately. I really hope that soon that all changes. If I wasnt against organized religion I'd seriously go to church and pray for help and redemption. Yeah, Im at that point. Anyways, keep your fingers crossed for me that I dont have to do any time. Later kids.

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my advice is enroll in a program that is a "pro" for your case like A.A. or something.... try to show the judge that is was just a dumb mistake and not who u are as a person... see if u can get comm. service instead of fines.... claim financial hadship..... tell them u just got a new job.... that u think your girlfriend is pregnant and u wannbe a adult now.....
anyway take it easy
Another thing I learned. Courts are tricky. You'll fail your anger management evaluation no matter what. Don't take one. Anger management classes are expensive, and they'll make you go. Two: You'll also be an alcoholic even if you just drink once a month (me! me!). Don't take an evaluation. You'll fail, and end up in classes. Which are expensive.
I know you said that you wanted to stay out of jail, but seriously, adding up all the probation, classes and shit you'd have to pay for to stay OUT of jail... you'll probably realize that going to jail for a few days will save you THOUSANDS of dollars.
Who knows though, keep us all informed, and I'm sure you'll get a bunch of thoughts.