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Isnt it funny that when you have an arguement with someone and you two are stuck in the same room, that the room seems like a 2 ft. cage that can't get smaller? Isnt it funny how when your upset it seems like your own voice in your head talks alot louder than ever? Isnt it funny how you can feel so close to someone one minute and then disconnected and alienated from them the next so quickly? Isnt it funny when you cant sleep because of all of this?....No.

I've been informed that it is Unusually to still have sexual desires for someone when you've been with them for a long time. That sex drives and passions Naturally die off. You see...in all of the psychology books I've read, they've called this a "Usual Problem"...but not a natural thing. But obviously what I've read and the way I feel is wrong, abnormal, and unnatural. Im some kind of freak I guess. So what?...am I suppose to be "normal" and fantasize over teenage girls, own a library of porn, and keep all of my sexual desires very seperate from my mate...like every other aging male in a relationship? Would that be "natural"? I guess so. I suppose it's alot less absurd than hoping that my mate feel the same for me, and us to keep the passion and sexual desire we had when we met. And for me to try to find an answer why we ever lost it is just plain cruel. I should except how things are and give up the dream that a couple keep excitement, passion, and sexual desire the same as when they first met. Im like the 12 year old that still believes in Santa, the Easter Bunny, and God. Well, I should be fuckin privilaged to gain this insite so that I can let the false hope die and accept the "natural" realism and truth. ....Oh yeah...but Im the asshole.

Well on that friendly note...till next time kids...