jcrossuns

...just been going through a lot since my mother figure passed away back in June.

November was a rough month. I had a relapse and ended up slicing up my arm after over a year of not doing it.

Then on December 3rd, I ended up doing it again. Not as many cuts, but deeper ones.

I’m hoping this pain goes away soon. It just...
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Hey guys,

Here’s how the wake for my boss/surrogate mother went:

June had to gently pull me away from the casket, and when my supervisor Mia saw that I was starting to break down, she came over and gave me a hug.

Me and my small circle of friends gathered in a corner and talked about Tori and how she would react to the things...
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Hey,

I don’t really have much to say in this entry.

My boss passed away last night after a years long battle against cancer.

She was one of my best friends, and the mother I should have had.

I probably won’t be on for a little while, but it’s kinda been like that lately, so I guess there’s no real change in that.

Anyway, the...
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I’m falling for someone, and I don’t want to. We share a similar story complete with broken hearts, regrets, and a lot of emotional trauma. We relate so much, and love the same passions.

However, I don’t want my heart broken again.

She’s a beautiful and attractive woman on multiple levels, and I’m falling for her. Hard.

I can’t let this happen.

It will just...
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Hey, guys.

I don’t normally do shoutouts, but this is someone who deserves it.

Birdi (@birdi) is a really beautiful woman with a kind heart, and a soul to match.

If you haven’t checked her profile yet, I highly recommend it.

She’s been an inspiration for me ever since I stumbled upon her page, and she’s a total sweetheart.

So when you get the chance,...
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...here’s my text conversation with my delivery person. I hope it brings as much joy to you, as it did my shopper.

- Jaclyn ❤️

That’s how I’ve been feeling for a while now.

What am I doing with my life?

I’m a person wasting my life at a desk in a room, processing overpriced pieces of carbon for customers across the country.

Only enjoying it because I like it and it makes me feel important. But I don’t feel important. I feel like I’m just a statistic, a cog...
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Listening to the woman in the building across from mine having sex with her window opened.

I may have shouted “YEAH, GET IT, GIRL!!!”

Window is now closed.

Apartment life, am I right?

- Jaclyn

I feel my chest tighten

As I long for your embrace

The pain around my broken heart

A reminder of my falling from grace

My wings were burned to ashes

My soul decayed and dry

I bring the blade down my wrist

And dream of angels dancing across a scarlet sky

- Jaclyn

You were my drug

And I was addicted

I wanted to inject you inside my veins

And feel you inside of me

I passed the needle to you

So you can feel what it’s like

Lusting for one more shot

Lusting for your touch

Lusting for you

Love me please

- Jaclyn