ok I have not up dated in entirely too long, so here it is.
First off what just happened to this site? instead of friend stuff its bookmarks, they want my dateing perference" am I looking? no actually not at the moment, I am good in that department." I think 2 girls a day is nice as opposed to one but what ever happened to the videos. ehh I mostly just use this to read what is happening to freinds , drop some comments and (peek at heaven) look at lennon.
I guess some things are not ment to stay the same.
well I just got off vacation and It was great. so nice to be just me for 9 days. I had lots of sex , played guitar, sang, danced , ran , read , watched movies,cooked, eat, drank, sleept, and had georgious none stressfull coversations.
Basically I lived my life as exactly I whould If I were God. It was great
now it is back to killing babies, and being a leach off society in the U.S.M.C. "I wonder if my soul well ever be clean after contributing to the will of our Prisedent?
At least I didnt vote for the fuck..
ok story time . .....I love my girl ...... she is great I know no one wants to here that gay shit but one way that she is extraordinary is she is tottally trusting. she knows that I sleep with my (very attractive) friend ever time I go out with her but that nothing happens, we cuddle but it is platonic. Well no names being named but the other day I was spleeping with my friend ( who is right now , I think, comming to the end of a very long and commeted relationship because her man was in the military but his contract ran out and he whent back home, and the long distance thing is always wierd)
well I woke up to her kissing me wich was like woh! what is going on? I not going to throw away what I have with my girl over a drunken whim? It was wierd for a while but we were both very drunk and fell asleep again any way. In the end me and my frind are good and I feel great cause it isnt just and ideal any more I really have sacraficed momentary pleasure in the name of monogamy.
the wierd thing is that I know that in 10 months I too will be leaving and Im torn. I cant wait to go back to austin and be a full time student to make my mark with my music in a place that just breaths music (Austin) , to being close to my family and the people that I love. But at the same time I dont want to even think of not being with Julie but I also dont want to think about giveing up on my dreams
do you know how fucked up it is to want to run toward and away from a future day at the same time?
First off what just happened to this site? instead of friend stuff its bookmarks, they want my dateing perference" am I looking? no actually not at the moment, I am good in that department." I think 2 girls a day is nice as opposed to one but what ever happened to the videos. ehh I mostly just use this to read what is happening to freinds , drop some comments and (peek at heaven) look at lennon.
I guess some things are not ment to stay the same.
well I just got off vacation and It was great. so nice to be just me for 9 days. I had lots of sex , played guitar, sang, danced , ran , read , watched movies,cooked, eat, drank, sleept, and had georgious none stressfull coversations.
Basically I lived my life as exactly I whould If I were God. It was great
now it is back to killing babies, and being a leach off society in the U.S.M.C. "I wonder if my soul well ever be clean after contributing to the will of our Prisedent?
At least I didnt vote for the fuck..
ok story time . .....I love my girl ...... she is great I know no one wants to here that gay shit but one way that she is extraordinary is she is tottally trusting. she knows that I sleep with my (very attractive) friend ever time I go out with her but that nothing happens, we cuddle but it is platonic. Well no names being named but the other day I was spleeping with my friend ( who is right now , I think, comming to the end of a very long and commeted relationship because her man was in the military but his contract ran out and he whent back home, and the long distance thing is always wierd)
well I woke up to her kissing me wich was like woh! what is going on? I not going to throw away what I have with my girl over a drunken whim? It was wierd for a while but we were both very drunk and fell asleep again any way. In the end me and my frind are good and I feel great cause it isnt just and ideal any more I really have sacraficed momentary pleasure in the name of monogamy.
the wierd thing is that I know that in 10 months I too will be leaving and Im torn. I cant wait to go back to austin and be a full time student to make my mark with my music in a place that just breaths music (Austin) , to being close to my family and the people that I love. But at the same time I dont want to even think of not being with Julie but I also dont want to think about giveing up on my dreams
do you know how fucked up it is to want to run toward and away from a future day at the same time?
I understand. I am torn all the time, just in case you read the journals. I have never been completely committed to one man and the drunk whims? I have a small catalog. I do not think it is a bad thing to comfort a friend... it is not like you slept with her. Besides, when someone needs to be held and kissed, if it happens once then cool - hell, even if it happens again. If the kiss and holding is comfort, more power to you. Monogamy is all about intention - and your friend needed your comfort, not your cock.
Do not worry, you are in the clear. You have a level head on your shoulders. At least it is not me, I do not take "no" for an answer. Rest assured, your heart is in the right place.
My sister is in the Military stationed in S. Korea right now. She did not vote for that fucker either. We shall see where this election goes...
I want to run to and from my future every day. Downloading my school applications (one to a JC out here and one to a four year... see who bites) to be sent in. I have to try, either way.
Keep well,
~ the angel*