Ola my Gente,
So I haven't done a real one of these for a long time. So my J is rolled and half smoked at this point. A check in.
These are the moments I find myself ebbing. The podcast is going well. New episode here.
Creeking out of my mind still, "what's next"? The pandemic ended and stopped all the shows. I have this mountain of art growing from the inside of me. Never sure which one will force it's way out first. The times they hit are 3AM-5Am. All the while the rest of me wants to sleep. Learned years back to always have a notebook handy. Keeps the mind's eyes open to not struggle to bottle them.
Daydreaming about SG Camp. Had vivid images of an adult Moonrise Kingdom. Kind of love reconnecting but also really bad at staying connected. I live in this always in my head or on my canvas. Never not walking over to my wife for a run by kiss in a turn back to the studio to mix that last color. A perfect Kermit the frog green today.
It all feels so unsure.Many great ideas and yet no energy to do them all. My ears never stop ringing these days. Weed helps, headphones help but can't live all day as a mechanic with those two.
Little boy cat keeps me smiling. Silly with knives for claws that my legs will not forget. Little girl cat that sleeps like she has no spine and is trying to spell out her dreams. Old dog that is hellbent on eating all the cicadas. I love them but they are madness. My welcomed madness. My boy keeps me company at the sleeping world's bedtimes.
Something about the way he loves me makes my heart sing. It is a joy I didn't know I had in me. No painting in the last year he has not been beside me. I have to check him for paint some times. He loves it. Makes me feel infinite.
Still playing with my cameras. Need to make a shelf for all of them. The kind of live in a box right now.Not as majestic yet as @rambo 's cameras bookcase. Working on it. But deeply happy with all of them.
Still reading Wild Wood. Can''t seem to finish it. All the illustration make me stop and painting weird little illustrations.
night dreamers