jasonxstar

so i attended my friends wake yesterday morning and pretty much it was like a really sad ending to a movie.mostly alot of people i haven't seen in years were there and pretty much everyone filled the entire church.it was good seeing alot of my old friends from highschool but at the same time it was for a really horrible cause.during the whole time i was mostly all zoned out with a flutter of mixed emotions and trying to hold back my tears.seeing alot of family members and friends crying around me was simply quite the most depressing thing have ever seen.my friend jimmy who is the lead singer of the band im playing in right now approached the podem and literally broke out in tears explaining the times we all had and memories we all shared.seeing his dead body in the casket above the platform was so so unreal.like someone built an exact duplicate of his body but did a poor job at it.looked completely eerie.i gave his grieveng parents and brother who i am very close with as well hugs.my heart and prayers are with them always.afterwards everyone met up for pizza and beer at the pizza shop down the street and we all just talked about how awesome of a guy kyle was and about the shit we all used to pull back in highschool..very good to see everyone.

so anways this band from florida called "the calm" is trying out drummers since their drummer quit and i found this out through a friend on SG.this band is really fucking amazing and are on their way to getting signed by a major company and go on a tour earlier next year.they heard some songs i played drums on in a few bands and are very intrested in trying me out.the bad thing is i have to fly to florida and attend the try outs which are happening through out the week.it sucks because i don't have enough cash to fly out there right now and im not sure if thier going to wait until i can fly out.if i made it in the band i would have to move out there and make a living.they said they would hook up a place for me to stay and all that.this is something i have always wanted to do since my last band that actually would have gotten somewhere broke up..you know to be in a serious hard working band and tour and make a living off of it.just im not sure if i can just pack up and leave again because my friends would be pretty much bummed not to mention the band im playing in now.oh well hopefully maybe someday i will have my big break.music is always going to be a big part of my life and im sure the right opportunity will appear in the near future.

as for now back to work

btw if your intrested on hearing more about The Calm here is thier website ... click on the name

The Calm

jstar