jasonxstar

i am finally facing reality right now and realize im a big loser..
im sad..alone...cold inside....why you may ask? i never feel wanted, i hate feeling alone, my brain hurts from all the terrible thoughts i have been thinking.i can't kill the pain with alcohol or drugs because its a pain deeper then that.as i type these words i feel the tears swell up but not come down.maybe if i just shut my eyes...i won't feel anything.