Trigger warning: depression, mental illness, suicide.
Once upon a time a wonderful man commented on one of my Instagram photos from a photoshoot by Sam Dickinson. Ig @jazzxp
This man was Rick Genest. Also known as zombie boy... giddy past me fangirled so very hard, and joke to my friends that he was ‘my new husband’.
What an inspiration and fascinating man he is. As a 15 year old boy he had a brain tumour and the surgery left him with 50% of his brain. How incredible to think he made it this far as only to let his mental illness demons beat him in the end.
If you are suffering, whether it’s from mental illness or life please reach out and talk to someone because there is somebody out there who loves you. Imagine that one of the most important person / people in your life, took their own lives?? Imagine the sadness and despair, and how much you would miss the person you love.
The idea of putting the people I love so much in so much pain because I was too crippled to ask for help, or anxious of how others would think of you.
I’ve been there. I attempted suicide when I was 20: and have now made it to 30 (almost). As a teen / blooming adult I was so sure that I would join the 27 club and finally do it then. By the time I was 27 I had accomplished so much! And have met so many incredible people along the way.
Most of you reading this would not have been aware of my existence. I wouldn’t have faced my anxiety and fears and open myself up to the world. I wouldn’t have started piercing tattooing or modelling or creating art almost everyday. And work every day towards my goal of being a full time artist 💕💕
So please trust me when I say that somebody loves you and that things do and will and can get better!!! You just have to be open to change and help 💕 which is the hardest thing I’ve done in my life.
RIP Zombie Boy my almost friend 💕
