What a gorgeous smile!! This post is definitely long overdue. I can't say enough about this beautiful girl @kyanite so I'll start at the beginning, but before I do that I need to express all my love to her because it was her birthday on Saturday!! Happy Birthday babe! I hope you had a wonderful day (even though I know that her world is currently in limbo). It is the day that the world was blessed with her birth, and I am much better off having met her and personally being blessed with her contagious smile.
Our journey begins when I first joined this wonderful website and finally had access to the site. I didn't upload my first set until 2015 so didn't become a hopeful or have access to the site beforehand. This was the year that @kyanite entered my life, she was then known as Lillymaee. I don't remember the exact conversation we had or the specifics but I remember that she was one of the first girls on the site whom followed me, befriended me and messaged me. She was always so encouraging and supportive of me. She would often post my photos on instagram pages that she managed and shared my profiles around to others, making me feel that someone out there valued my work, and appreciated my presence. It made me smile each and every time and sometimes in my darker moments would often be the defining factor that would make my day. The wonderful part about it was that I noticed how much she would connect too and encourage a lot of other girls too. She was never one of those girls who competed with women or were threatened by them or dragged them down. I never understood toxic people who would act in such ways. Her kindness was always genuine and you could tell that she always wanted to help others and encourage them on their suicidegirls journey. She is also smart and saavy! Figuring out the nuisances and tricks of instagram, she managed to accumulate a large following on social media quickly so she justifiable (because she is such a kind hearted babe) had a powerful online presence.
After a few months of messaging back and forth, we organised for her to stay with me (aswell as some other sg members) during the Melbourne 2015 Shootfest and Yearly Ball. She asked me if I wanted to shoot a multi set with her and varga, while I was here and I was so very honoured to do so. Not only had the day finally came for us to meet in person but I would shoot my first multi set, which to this day, is still my only multi set. It was great to finally meet her, also had we not spoken to each other over the phone a few times before we met, I would not have guessed that she has a cute British accent <3. She was also very considerate over the days she stayed with me and I tattooed her alice in wonderful back tattoo while she was with me. I will also remember this special moment as it was the first person apart of SG to get a tattoo from me. She believed in me and my tattoo work, and allowed me to penetrate her skin and I was happy that I could give her a permanent, physical reminder of her time in Melbourne.
Since then we have still been in constant contact. Even if its just the occasional check in message of 'How are you' she always makes me feel connected to her. She has such a huge heart and she likes to keep tabs on her friends, which admittedly is a part of my life I neglect (Flustered with life, and many projects etc) so I admire her immensely for it. She officially became a suicide girl when her set French Kiss, taken by @coolicio was chosen for the set of the day at the start of 2018. I was so happy for her!! But honestly not surprised, because this hard working, beautiful, smart and kind hearted girl deserved it so much! I'm so proud of her, watching her from the sidelines as she works to kick her goals, opens up her heart and mind while going down a spiritual and self finding journey and found excitement and exercise in her latest pole dancing endeavours. The strength of this girl, as she works through past trauma and bullshit is inspiring, because I know how tough life has been for this girl. I know we all have dark times and low moments but I love watching her develop her character and pull through, without bitterness and without projecting that pain onto others by being an asshole. I can't wait to see the incredible things that you do with your life! I always forget how young she is! Only 22, she seems so mature and has done a lot with those years already! So no doubt she has an exciting life ahead of her, full of love, laughter and kicking ass!!
Love you babe!!
Here are my favourite photos from our 2015 Multi Set Paddle Pop aren't we cute <3 <3
