whehhh...long day...i've got to stop trying to live off of 4 hours of sleep...but it sure is fun until i pay for it the next day! life is good though...it's so funny, my camera was recently stolen, and i've been devastated...(this is not the funny part)...but as fate would have it, since then my music has sky-rocketed...so, as fucked up as it is, i guess there is a balance there...ahhh, i'm glad that the week is halfway over...this weekend i'm definately getting out of the city...i don't care if i only have a 2 day road trip...you can get pretty far in a day...i just have to keep myself positive...my work is amazing...but it's the hardest thing that i've ever done in my life...and i'm actually doing something i believe in, so it's fucking bizarre to actually CARE about your job...it's enough to make me want to hit the global road again, and not come back til i'm ready to settle (yah, that'll happen)...but, being the gemini double personality that i am, i swing back and forth like mad, between fantasies of buying a little teeny loft and widdling my life away here...or taking off to be an activist vagabond with nothing but the possibility of starvation to keep me well behaved...ahhh, fuck it...i think i'll just continue making environmental maps like a mad woman, learn to save cash by staying home and feeding my damn self, and then...and then...spend my measly savings to continue traveling the world....i'm going to buy myself a new digital camera, and i'll be free to roam the earth as a freelance musical journalist...another dream...this life is truly a waking dream (yes, i am thinking about the movie...but that was not what initially inspired that comment)...and i'm hell bent on making it a brilliant one...brilliant in the sense that i wake to find myself enamored with the possibility of what the upcoming day may bring...instead of the 9-5 holdrum that far too many of us must be enslaved by...i am the dreamer dreaming me...
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