jaqueline_

well, i've got myself into a right situation. met up with a guy that i had a thing with a while ago, just as friends...yeah right. i held off for most of the night while he casually flirted, yeah i guess i did flirt back...but i knew i had to keep it at a safe distance due to his having a girlfriend. so there we were at the pub, talking, casual flirting happening, but then being able to cut the sexual tension with a knife.

so we'd drunk our drinks and eaten our food, and were a little bored, so we went for a walk around the town the pub is in. BAD IDEA. everything got more touchy feely, not in a rude way, but in a flirty way, then i had to go home so we walked to my bus stop and that's when it all happened.

after about 5 minutes of just talking we kissed...and this isn't the first time it's happened, its the second time it's happened since he's had a girlfriend. he says he can hold off with any other girl but then when it comes to me he can't say no. and i feel exactly the same way even though i know it's wrong. it's like we just can't stop it happeneing and have no power over it at all. GOD IT'S SO ANNOYING HOW HE MAKES ME FEEL!!

does anyone have any advice for me? i'm in a complete rut, but things don't happen if they weren't meant to do they?

AND AND AND my results are out tomorrow, not only am i crapping it, I'M CRAPPING IT!!!