Happy New Year!!!
i actually fell asleep around 9PM, New Year's Eve, which is exactly what i wanted to do because i was feeling very blah and bahhumbug-y. but right at midnight, the phone woke me up. it was my dad, calling to say "Happy New Year, I love you" ... and then i heard the fireworks going off outside. i swear to you, i cried for 20 straight minutes. happy tears. what a great way to spend the first few minutes of the new year ... feeling completely blessed to know that there will be at least one man in your life who will ALWAYS love you.
with a beginning like that, i feel very hopeful that this year will be a great one for me.
updates:
-mom was okay after the accident and i think all of the insurance stuff is finally settled. her beloved Explorer was pretty much totaled, though.
-my dad DID finally come home the day after her accident, so the family situation is good again.
-talking about jerky guys is SO 2008, so let's not even go there. goodbye and good riddance, i say. i don't miss anyone who doesn't miss me.
best things/moments of 2009, so far:
-"Little Red" lives! my busted old Toyota Corolla that kissed an I35 barrier at 85mph in the RAIN and lived on to drive to the San Antonio Spurs game? in 2006? yah, she started right up for me when we recently had to come up with a car for mom to drive. i love that friggin car.
-yes, i got laid off last month, but damn ... i really like my new job. being around people again ... feeling like i am doing something important ... feeling smart and appreciated. and ... pretty? these are all things that my cushy job working from home did not provide.
-going to church with my friend Judy. no, i don't really like the sing-y parts and yes, my parents are wigging out because it's not Catholic ... BUT in all of the 3 times i've gone, i have ended up in tears. tears of relief. i leave feeling hopeful and loved. and you know, even if you don't actually believe in God (i do), you can still go to these things and feel uplifted. there's some kind of dam that bursts inside when you hear someone else acknowledging that, "yah ... it's been a sh*tty year ... but it's going to get better". you know? it's nice to have someone say those words to you.
-Dudes, Commentary The Musical. so good.
resolutions:
i don't really have any solid resolutions for 2009, but vaguely ...
-to trust my instincts about people
-to understand the things i am and be at peace with the things i will never be
-to take better care of myself, my family, and my friendships
-to be smarter, if and when it's time to go back out into the world of relationships
-to absolutely positively completely stop worrying about what other people think of me
-to spend as much time laughing, doing, trying, learning, and living as i possibly can
-to understand that there will be rough times and not to take it personally
-to stay busy, busy, busy until the roughest parts of 2008 become an emotionally-inaccessible memory
so here's what i'll be doing to stay busy:
jan 14 - Trivia Night at Plucker's
jan 15 - Jesus Christ Superstar at the Long Center
jan 16 - co-worker's Happy Hour at the Warehouse, then Battlestar Galactica @ 9PM (CST)
jan 17-20 - Ronnie comes to visit!
jan 20 - NEW PRESIDENT!
jan 21 - my birthday ... hooray for 32!
jan 23 - John Legend at the Performing Arts Center. Nutmeg.
feb 6 - Rigoletto at the Long Center
feb 7 - return of the Blackberry!
feb 15 - volunteering at the Austin Marathon
feb 25 - Jackie's birthday
feb 28 - Bill Cosby at the Performing Arts Center
mar 25 - Alvin Ailey at the Perfoming Arts Center
apr 20 - David Sedaris at the Paramount
apr 25 - Maya Angelou at the Paramount
jun 23 - new bed!
aug 12-30 - Wicked at Performing Arts Center
so what else should i do? any ideas to broaden my horizons?
i actually fell asleep around 9PM, New Year's Eve, which is exactly what i wanted to do because i was feeling very blah and bahhumbug-y. but right at midnight, the phone woke me up. it was my dad, calling to say "Happy New Year, I love you" ... and then i heard the fireworks going off outside. i swear to you, i cried for 20 straight minutes. happy tears. what a great way to spend the first few minutes of the new year ... feeling completely blessed to know that there will be at least one man in your life who will ALWAYS love you.
with a beginning like that, i feel very hopeful that this year will be a great one for me.
updates:
-mom was okay after the accident and i think all of the insurance stuff is finally settled. her beloved Explorer was pretty much totaled, though.
-my dad DID finally come home the day after her accident, so the family situation is good again.
-talking about jerky guys is SO 2008, so let's not even go there. goodbye and good riddance, i say. i don't miss anyone who doesn't miss me.
best things/moments of 2009, so far:
-"Little Red" lives! my busted old Toyota Corolla that kissed an I35 barrier at 85mph in the RAIN and lived on to drive to the San Antonio Spurs game? in 2006? yah, she started right up for me when we recently had to come up with a car for mom to drive. i love that friggin car.
-yes, i got laid off last month, but damn ... i really like my new job. being around people again ... feeling like i am doing something important ... feeling smart and appreciated. and ... pretty? these are all things that my cushy job working from home did not provide.
-going to church with my friend Judy. no, i don't really like the sing-y parts and yes, my parents are wigging out because it's not Catholic ... BUT in all of the 3 times i've gone, i have ended up in tears. tears of relief. i leave feeling hopeful and loved. and you know, even if you don't actually believe in God (i do), you can still go to these things and feel uplifted. there's some kind of dam that bursts inside when you hear someone else acknowledging that, "yah ... it's been a sh*tty year ... but it's going to get better". you know? it's nice to have someone say those words to you.
-Dudes, Commentary The Musical. so good.
resolutions:
i don't really have any solid resolutions for 2009, but vaguely ...
-to trust my instincts about people
-to understand the things i am and be at peace with the things i will never be
-to take better care of myself, my family, and my friendships
-to be smarter, if and when it's time to go back out into the world of relationships
-to absolutely positively completely stop worrying about what other people think of me
-to spend as much time laughing, doing, trying, learning, and living as i possibly can
-to understand that there will be rough times and not to take it personally
-to stay busy, busy, busy until the roughest parts of 2008 become an emotionally-inaccessible memory
so here's what i'll be doing to stay busy:
jan 14 - Trivia Night at Plucker's
jan 15 - Jesus Christ Superstar at the Long Center
jan 16 - co-worker's Happy Hour at the Warehouse, then Battlestar Galactica @ 9PM (CST)
jan 17-20 - Ronnie comes to visit!
jan 20 - NEW PRESIDENT!
jan 21 - my birthday ... hooray for 32!
jan 23 - John Legend at the Performing Arts Center. Nutmeg.
feb 6 - Rigoletto at the Long Center
feb 7 - return of the Blackberry!
feb 15 - volunteering at the Austin Marathon
feb 25 - Jackie's birthday
feb 28 - Bill Cosby at the Performing Arts Center
mar 25 - Alvin Ailey at the Perfoming Arts Center
apr 20 - David Sedaris at the Paramount
apr 25 - Maya Angelou at the Paramount
jun 23 - new bed!
aug 12-30 - Wicked at Performing Arts Center
so what else should i do? any ideas to broaden my horizons?
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Sausagefest.
Well isn't that ironic, dontchu think???