janejame

Hi @missy and @rambo!

When I saw this question, I wanted to talk about my unusual trip in which I shot my first photoset for sg! Specifically, the trip itself was terrible for me, but

it was in no way directly related to cg, the experience of the first filming or the people with whom I interacted.

At the same time, the happiest and most terrible trip, such a discord. Caution, the post will be long❗)

I was advised to shoot the first photoset with Natalia Randley from Moscow, so that he was in accordance with all the canons and with the professional staff of the photographer. I agreed, although until the very last hour I was tormented by doubts about this whole event. To become a “hopful” is to abandon your former environment and possibly lose contact with your family, as this is a “nude” genre and the Internet remembers everything. (In our country, stereotypes are still alive that naked photographs are almost the same as prostitution, and in general this is condemned by society) And on the other side of the scale, to lose unique opportunities and meeting interesting people, a completely new life, a new worldview.

Somehow, everything didn’t work out from the very beginning - I did the hair styling at my hairdresser and, sitting on my suitcases, I booked a trip with a fellow traveler in a car. At the very last moment, he refused to take me with him. It's that simple, but I was told that this application is to blame, through which we interacted. 😱I had a hysteria, since a lot depended on how much I would arrive there. So you need to cancel or reschedule the studio and again agree with a bunch of people, apologize, because I could no longer fit into their plans. You can’t help with tears, which means that it was necessary to solve this situation and again having agreed with everyone in the near future I ordered train tickets and made a new hair styling (my hairdresser could not accept me and another woman was doing my hair, this styling fell in the evening, which further upset me).

In general, I was mistaken already at the stage of buying tickets to another city. I did not listen to Sonya @purr , who insistently advised me to buy tickets for the reserved seat. Fatal mistake. Maybe I was in a hurry then, maybe I tried to save, or maybe both options at once.

By stupidity I took a seat, and I had to go for almost 14 or 16 hours! My husband could not come with me, but it’s a pity, without him I don’t feel safe. He put me on a train and now I was on my way to meet a new world. The first few hours were for me in a very high spirits, and then the Internet disappeared and boredom came, since I could no longer listen to audio books. And she could not fall asleep, as it was as inconvenient as possible, the ugly iron backs and arms were digging into the body. People in the car succeeded each other, and all my companions looked as marginal as possible. Some were fragrant with cheap alcohol. Time dragged on forever.😱Even to go to the toilet was problematic for me - I could not leave things. In the evening I froze - the weather was very strange - it was very hot in the afternoon, and in the evening it was quite cold, I was not ready for this. And at night, menstruation also came. I apologize for such details, but the girls will understand. It was unexpected, but worse than that, it is well-being in the first few hours. As if KAMAZ had moved you. In general, it was like my personal hell.

The rays of the morning sun gave hope that this torment would soon end, counted every minute. And now, on the peron, Sonya met me @purr . 💖💖💖My savior! She invited me to this city, met and offered her help, fed and kindly offered to come to her place. Still very grateful to her! The best and most pleasant memory is the time spent with you. Thank you for putting up with my dumb head, for that ton of information that you gave me, thanks for the photo, for a short tour of the city and for your kind attitude, it was embarrassing to strain you, after everything I experienced it seemed to me that I was just I do not deserve it. Talking to you, it seemed to me that my status as hopule and further development there is for granted. Doubts dispelled by themselves. A couple of hours with you gave me freedom and untied my hands, changed me and my worldview, gave hope for another life!✨One of the advantages of this community I felt almost immediately - meeting interesting people. We shot the photoset with Natasha @natalia_randle in one breath, it was just amazingly fast and it turned out incredibly beautiful. Everything was so wonderful that I could not even believe it; I was inspired. But all good things come to an end and the time has come to leave, which means that 16 hours of hell awaits me again. This trip made me happy and at the same time it seemed that I was at the limit of my strength and was exhausted. Almost a day without food and feeling unwell did their job. But I was definitely very pleased. This experience has already changed me irrevocably.

Thanks to everyone who read and thanks to this community for a new life❗