My apartment is SO messy. I HATE cleaning so much I would rather just sit in the filth than clean it. Then it gets disasterous and overwhelming. I've never been a keep up on it kinda girl though.
I've been sober now for 7 weeks and it sucks. I get so angry and bitchy it's unbelievable. I thought it might get easier like after everything was out of my system but it's totally not. The bitch of it is, there was a lag from my first test to the start of the 11 weeks that I have to be in drug counseling and it's actually only 3 weeks into the program. So here I am stuffing my face and not trying to stab my friends in the throat, but the reality is I'm pretty much regressed into my little dirty apartment with my dog and my boyfriend (which are the only two reasons I have for not stabbing anyone). This is not going to be much fun for the rest of the 8 weeks of this program. Fucking bullshit. I hate everything right now. So let me go get ready for the dumbass job I have.
I've been sober now for 7 weeks and it sucks. I get so angry and bitchy it's unbelievable. I thought it might get easier like after everything was out of my system but it's totally not. The bitch of it is, there was a lag from my first test to the start of the 11 weeks that I have to be in drug counseling and it's actually only 3 weeks into the program. So here I am stuffing my face and not trying to stab my friends in the throat, but the reality is I'm pretty much regressed into my little dirty apartment with my dog and my boyfriend (which are the only two reasons I have for not stabbing anyone). This is not going to be much fun for the rest of the 8 weeks of this program. Fucking bullshit. I hate everything right now. So let me go get ready for the dumbass job I have.
I know this must be really tuff, I have known a lot of people who had to do this, it was never easy for any of them, but as time goes on things do get better.