jamy

Yes that moment of creative potential is the most exilarating experience. I love it when words and ideas cascade over each other and its all you can do to keep up with your creation.

Right now I'm having this prob;em where my time is regimented and I need to create on demand. I just want to be able to act on inspiration and drop everything when I feel the muse. Right now I just have a few hours here and there and I just have to force creation then. That just sets you up for failure and frustration when you are unable to summon creation in the alloted time. I need to quit my day job. Bah!

I dreamed last night that I was Downhill Mountainbiking, which ia almost akin to blasphemy for my XC sensibilities. I had a groundhog moment on this 10ft drop, where on the 3rd attempt I flew off. I was amazed first at the freedom of the falling sensation and then the realisation of my verging on orgasmic lust for the ground as it rushed up toward me - my hunger and connection to mother earth, her warmth and comfort.

This is totally ironic bacuse your average downhill/freeride mountainbiker has no conservation tendancies whatsoever, but it did give me a sense of understanding as to why some people throw themselves off cliffs. =)

Yikes, beware of the caffeine demon.

I used to work as a coffee & tea tasting trainer for a coffee company and I got so strung out. There was always super tasty coffee available. I would drink like 4 cups of coffee daily Then I would sit in my cubicle and tweak the fuck out.

I have been really good about only drinking coffee once or twice a week, but last week I had a cup everyday, I just love stopping by the cafe before work, I suppose I should drink decaf, but whats the point. Plus decaf is processed with some scary solvents, or it is water processed which is totally tasteless.

I share your pain. *twitch, twitch*

Drinking a lot of coffee can be a problem, but the real problem when you are partially driven to drink so much due to the cute girl working at your favorite local coffee shop. Indeed a situation where the only resolve is to keep drinking and seeing her.

By the way, Michael Jackson rules.

cube was ok.
i'll check out
the stalker.
gotta go.
back later.
good day 2 u, sir.

cheeky? is that a compliment or an insult?

Neither am I.

Goddammit.. Well, hope you feel better. Yer a good one.

what an inspiring post! so well said...

hmm,,,,this is something i think about all the time and it continues to leave me frustrated. basically all i have come to figure is that individually we can all do our part and come together in groups in order to make things even a tiny bit better (or sometimes a lot better)... look at organizations like amnesty international or greenpeace.... there are people out there trying and we must support them if we believe in what they do. but that too is hard. does this mean i should support every single environmental group? every free speech group? i don't have endless free time unfortunately.

what it comes down to is being yourself. we all need to act the way we really want to act regardless of public opinion. call me a faggot for supporting gay rights, call me a treehugger for being an environmentalist and a vegetarian. i care not about the public. it is the general public who creates these problems, why should we feel affected by them? we need to look to ourselves and individually make a difference. it may sound like i just blame people and haven't a heart. hopefully you know that isn't true.

love for all,
alex

Actually it is a slightly stretched Peter Lorre. SHH...Don't tell though I think that they actually think it is me.

Heh... sometimes the self-consciously cool can be amusing and fun, as long as it ain't pretentious, you know? I think of a lot of my friends that way. Their self-conscious cool is more of a self-reflexive satire, so it works.

interesting thought.... I'll have to watch out for that possibiltiy

i haven't seen the movie version of "story of o". honestly, i don't think i could stomach it. too much violence.

how's oz treating you?