She's gone now; she feels no more pain.
I just want to crawl into bed and cry myself to sleep, but i can't
Corporate america is a bitch that doesn't view family as a range of species. When i cry, I cry a river; and i feel physically exhausted for days afterward. I need at least some energy for my job.....
jesus, i'm just dancing around the real issue: I don't want anyone to see me break down and this morning, seeing my father tear up, hearing his voice crack, was too much. I had leave for work immediately, because that in itself was scary: 21 years and today was the first i've ever seen him like that; even when i was in the hospital last year he didn't let me see him like that (i'm sure he was when back at home; he took it hard)...but he knew i would come home in a few days; but kate can't...
i've got to go before i ruin the school's equipment....
R.I.P. Kate Lambert, December 1990-September 2004. I love you
I just want to crawl into bed and cry myself to sleep, but i can't
Corporate america is a bitch that doesn't view family as a range of species. When i cry, I cry a river; and i feel physically exhausted for days afterward. I need at least some energy for my job.....
jesus, i'm just dancing around the real issue: I don't want anyone to see me break down
and this morning, seeing my father tear up, hearing his voice crack, was too much. I had leave for work immediately, because that in itself was scary: 21 years and today was the first i've ever seen him like that; even when i was in the hospital last year he didn't let me see him like that (i'm sure he was when back at home; he took it hard)...but he knew i would come home in a few days; but kate can't...
i've got to go before i ruin the school's equipment....
R.I.P. Kate Lambert, December 1990-September 2004. I love you
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trixie:
jesus, this journal entry turned my stomach upside down. I really hope that you and your family are okay. I'm sending you as many mental hugs as i can.
girly:
(((HUG)))