So, my mommy threw me a suprise party today. It was nice, but i'm not ecstatic about it; don't get me wrong, i enjoyed it...it's just that i don't get excited too often anymore. I can't exactly explain it, i just sort of chalk it up to depression and my meds 
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...and it's just weird being 21 now around my family: damn i want a drink, but i feel their eyes on me, making a bigger deal out of a sip of scotch than should be made. of course i can't let them see me "enjoying" my drink (see, abusing, as it is popularly called), so they can't conclude anything...
I still, kinda, would've liked to go out for the birthday dinner i thought i was going for tonight...
I'm a little disappointed that i didn't here a definate yes or no on wether my bosses would be in/like me to come in, so we could prepare for our DM's visit on tuesday. the store is such a mess: chalk that up to prior management team, and lazy doodie heads that don't wish to take the time to close the store right
i apparently said something to a friend thursday night that my buddies are making a big, albeit, cryptic, deal of...
They tell me not to worry about it, and y'know, fuck it: if they wish to feed me that much alcohol, then they should expect me to lose control. I'm sorry, and that's all i am, and all i can offer.
and damn, the olympics are not exciting to me at least ; but this story is amusing, but also sad in the same sense (I'm not a complete emotionless robot 
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...and it's just weird being 21 now around my family: damn i want a drink, but i feel their eyes on me, making a bigger deal out of a sip of scotch than should be made. of course i can't let them see me "enjoying" my drink (see, abusing, as it is popularly called), so they can't conclude anything...
I still, kinda, would've liked to go out for the birthday dinner i thought i was going for tonight...
I'm a little disappointed that i didn't here a definate yes or no on wether my bosses would be in/like me to come in, so we could prepare for our DM's visit on tuesday. the store is such a mess: chalk that up to prior management team, and lazy doodie heads that don't wish to take the time to close the store right
i apparently said something to a friend thursday night that my buddies are making a big, albeit, cryptic, deal of...
They tell me not to worry about it, and y'know, fuck it: if they wish to feed me that much alcohol, then they should expect me to lose control. I'm sorry, and that's all i am, and all i can offer.
and damn, the olympics are not exciting
to me at least ; but this story is amusing, but also sad in the same sense (I'm not a complete emotionless robot )
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Glad you had a great birthday.. Drinking I think brings out the true spirit of a person all the things that inhibit us suddenly just go away its a great feeling
How's this for the ultimate cheap date:
I also seem to have an amazing ability to get contact-drunk... as in, you drink, I end up wasted and hungover the next day
But, to compensate for that, you should never take me out to dinner - because of my metabolism and blood-sugar crap, I can eat more than you thought humanly possible... and I'll have no qualms eating your food too (as long as it's vegetarian, of course). And then, an hour later, I'll want to eat more.