woo hoo! happy birthday weekend to me! 
why am i not drinking at a bar? because i've no one to go with. Months on end i've been counting down, making a big deal, making sure no one would forget this year; yet everyone still makes other plans, blowing off everything we've talked about for months.
Yes, i'm being selfish this weekend, i don't fucking care! they all forgot last year, which did nothing but rob me of my will to live; which only broke the camel's back in a depressed summer, leading to a month of repeated suicide attempts, and two admissions to psychiatric wards at the end of October 2003 (two weeks apart no less). Still doesn't mean i can talk to them--I've tried.
I'm not sure any of this is making any fucking sense; I guess all i'm asking is: is it too much to want to feel appreciated?
this is just a bunch of ranting now; i can't put these thoughts into any discernable order...mebey the scotch will help...
why am i not drinking at a bar? because i've no one to go with. Months on end i've been counting down, making a big deal, making sure no one would forget this year; yet everyone still makes other plans, blowing off everything we've talked about for months.
Yes, i'm being selfish this weekend, i don't fucking care! they all forgot last year, which did nothing but rob me of my will to live; which only broke the camel's back in a depressed summer, leading to a month of repeated suicide attempts, and two admissions to psychiatric wards at the end of October 2003 (two weeks apart no less). Still doesn't mean i can talk to them--I've tried.
I'm not sure any of this is making any fucking sense; I guess all i'm asking is: is it too much to want to feel appreciated?
this is just a bunch of ranting now; i can't put these thoughts into any discernable order...mebey the scotch will help...
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lilmissmorbid:
Hope your weekend was smashing!
doll:
OOO, happy birthday! and thanks for the cheese. 